I'm on the verge of giving up.
I'm just too hopeless for anything.
A part of me slowly dies each day.
What more can I do to change things?

I am still waiting.
I told you I would.

2 months,
I doubt you will hold on to your word.
You would just break me like the others.
Words, are just words, easily said & fast forgotten.

I am living my life now.
I always have been.

Recently,
I have lost the mood to study.
I have gain interest for the party-life.

Should I indulge in it?
I have restrained myself for too long.
I can't resist temptation no more.

Oh wells.
Tmr's my last paper.
&Then I am on break for 2 weeks.

Bleaching my hair tmr.
New look, I hope.

I am gonna make sure I will be fine without you.
Cause when you are around.
I feel the same as how I feel now.
Makes no difference.

I tried my best of wanting to know you.
You just pushed me aside.
But when you left,
You felt so guilty.

I do really know what to do now.
Stay & believe in faith or,
Leave & free myself?

Come to think of it.
I wished, simply wished.
I could erase my past.
I do not wished to stay in touch with ex's/dates/flings.

Cause having them around is pain.
Hearing that they have someone is painful.

I'm just hopeless.
Thank God, you're not me.