hey,

church was very inspiring... cause, haven't been there for a couple of weeks. people in antioch were super friendly... like sandra, errol, joan &jerri. dont really know what to do without them. sigh. then had songs &sharrings.

ANTIOCH CAMP
07/12/06 - 09/12/06;
14/12/06 - 16/12/06
(either one of these days.)

camp jeremiah &YISS people... rmb to keep this day free!

haha, i'll be giving a talk. rmb to come...

so why dont we go,
somewhere only we know.

i wish i knew where?

my life, what can i say. i used to love. the was one, whom i loved but turned out to be heart breaking. you raised me up from my feet. you taught me how not to let my emotions control me. words that came out from your mouth is like inspirational thoughts. you knew me inside out. you could read my mind. sigh. untill came the day when we got attached 130706. it meant the world to me. i am not sure about you. you had school &ndp rehearsals. you said that you will be there for me. you said that you will answer my calls. but you didn't. guess during the period of time. you were loving someone esle. yeah. how dumb. nights after nights. the tears just couldn't stop flowing. my heart was torn. i still waited. waited, thinking that you would come back to me. my friend told me. BREAK UP. but how to. then it came to 240706. i couldnt take it anymore. thats final. i send you the message. &you couldn't be bothered about it.

okay. now its over.

hey.

didn't go to school on tuesday... words from the doctor ' you are quite stressed up at school so i shall give you some tablets. you go home, take it &sleep well...' when i collected the medication from the pharmacist. it was just plain ordinary panadol... like wth! haha...

but indeed i was super super stress la. rehearsals, test. but i wasn't really worrying about that stuff. i don't really know what am i worrying about... till now. after all my tests have passed... i am still worrying about things. bought acs(i) musical tickets on the 5th of august... going with joy, glenys and julien... bahh! heh. this week isn't a good week neither a bad one too... well. i think this week passed pretty fast... hur hur... been through ups &downs... seen &heard it all.. ugh... star world is my favourite channel on cable... they provide me with nice shows to cheer me up &put me in th mood...

shall blog tmr after antioch...
toodles... :)

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?


Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

back agn.

haha. heh. was really kinda pissed today... friendster is pissing the sh*t of of me... seriously. log on... edit pics... then must sign in again... &it is happening for a couple of time alr! then... no one was at home from 12 - 4pm... so had to entertain myself... but lucky got anita... haha. crapped ALOT... disturb here disturb there... really fun... wish that she was back in fairfield... btw, people who don't relly know anita but do judge her by the way she looks can go &die.

she is a friendly person. i just realised that the most difficult people to deal with are girls &so happens that girls are the friendly-iest people to talk to. heh. quite cunning. haha. yeah... back to anita. she is really a nice friend. i could kill myself if i ever ever make ker angry. she is one, that craps with you, laughs at your very little stupid jokes, makes you got nuts. heh... yeah. her friends are super super cool... like nicky, hakim, ezra... &the list goes on... heh. yeah...

well. just found out there is history test &quiz this week on china... CRAP! heh. die liao sure die... plus food &nutrition; &physics tmr... sure drop dead... i wish that the musical could come faster... hur hur... firendster is really killing my patience... all the pics i uploaded is freaking gone! P.O.S.!

hey.

it is two more months to my birthday &i'm not so happy about it. seriously. i have no close friends besides anita. cos she is the only one that knows how to control me... plus, she is not my girlfriend. she knows my situation. do you? you can judge me for all i care. but please get your facts right. heh. life is cruel to me. i wish i could trade my sorrows &pain. i am missing 6 masses in total. i havent gone for church serivce. i am too confused. seriously. someone please drag me back to church. i don't really know whats gone into me lately. school? frienships? love life? family? god? or just me? i think its me. i don't really feel that i should be accepted into the world. i don't know why. i am taking the debate issue so seriously.

crap. i think i die alone as in, no one knows where i am &i just die there. piffs. all i want in my ipod is emo songs! gosh. i am like acting like a girl. blah. heh. you think i want it to be this way? HELL NO! okay. yesterday rehearsals went well. which is good i guess? i hope that natalie doesn't leave during this period of time. if not, the musical is off. &we are screwed. ugh. i hate it when you worry about things that doesn't really matter so much to you. really. it is quite stupid la. yeah. heh. tmr there is physics test- light. shit man. i hope that i dont fail like the last one. plus i hope that i pass my re-test. btw, i got 59 for chinese! i am so happy! haha. joy got 69, glenys got 62, viccintta got 60. haha... all so close. heh. but i am happy for myself. =D

rahh! i just wna blog blog blog blog so much. but i can't think of anything. heh. yeah. ok. found a topic. let's talk about bisexuals;

well, i think, they firstly the coolest people besides homosexuals. yeah. which is super duper cool lah. yeah... they have the coolest dressing sense besides metrosexuals. they have a huge circle of friends which is totally true. yeah... well bisexuals are quite rare in singapore if you ask me. seriously. heh. it is very unnotice-able. yeah. anyway. yes, i am proud to say i am bisexual. what is wrong with that? some girls i know are bisexuals &they lead very cool lives. totally! yeah. besides. therefore they aren't usually out-cast by society... well if you think that this is crap. then just leave my blog.

heh. i am not usually like this. i don't la. piffs.

hello!

school's killing me! i like gonna die if i continue further... yeah.. oh yeah. btw my cousins told me smth that made me realised that i am a lousy blogger. alright alright. i have no girlfriend. i am single. heh. anw... about that the girl i told you that i liked in sch... it isnt seem going well. heh.

the musical is a horror.. tmr is a big day.. full run + special guest. shit! die die! monday rehearsal was a ..... (no words to describe it) heh, yeah... nothing much happened yesterday. oh yeah just remembered. I WATCHED PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN 2! whoo hoo! yeah... i wna watch the the lake house too! its so so freaking romantic ok! i swear i'll cry during the movie.

today was the hyper-ist day of my life... had the funniest day of my life. heh. had chapel in the morning... slept thru it... SHH! dont tell anyone! haha. then had p.e. played badminton w glenn, liangfu &k'neth chum... it was so hilarious... haha... then played with jingy... haha, what a loser la, he backed out in th last minute.

had chinese... nth much. recess.. was ok... ate western again... then free period... joy was like super duper crazy la... haha stupid idiot! we laughed &laughed till english lesson.. it was pretty stupid la... but no choice... must release 'stress'... haha. then it came to the debates. wasnt really in the mood. i spoke alot of rubbish. and then i cried. INSIDE... i was really sad. but ms. ho rly said a good point which is that we can't judge gays. cos' we dont know who are they &we dont know how they feel... humanities was all standing and siting... rahh!

tmr there is chemistry &chinese... gotta go and mug. bye!

hey,

back from rehearsals in school.

today was quite fast i think... i came to school around like 9.50 and like everyones not there. execpt for drama co. heh. drama co. rocks la... yup. then one by one evryone came in... blah blah blah... did warm ups &stuff. then someone came into the door. i don't know why, but i had feelings for her... in school whenever she pass by me, she'll smile... really. but i gave up on her cos' my best pal liked her... but soon i found out that they weren't attached... whahaha. now is my turn!

(sheesh, i dont know what am i saying)

yeah. sad man... i dont know whether i have the guts to let her know... plus i hardly know her. it was all 'hello' and 'goodbye'.... ok ok... enough of love drama-mama. heh, then we practised the songs... while i doodled on my script... heh... then i was lunch... i was down. sad. lonely. dead. i dunno why. she left during lunch. gees. heh. then its was to rehearsals...

then end of rehearsals, followed jaime, julien &amy to town to meet sammi &watch pirates of the caribbean... sad thing was we couldnt get tickets! ASS! went from lido to plaza sing to cathay to cine. it took us 45mins do that. plus our taxi driver tried to cheat us cos we took a cab from cathay to cine. then he said pay me extra because 5 people sat in the cab. but we all left in a zip... whahaha! &then smth happened... cheer up julien... i'll be here for you okay? :)

then went home... bleh...

ok, gotta go.

LOVELOVE =D

"O, Lord.
You have searched me and known me.
You have been with me through my ups and downs.
When i am lost, You have found me.
You lift me up from the my Calvary,
there your hand shall lead me.
Search me and know me
through and through.
For I desire Your steadfast love
and bring me up like birds in the air
to freedom everlasting."

- a poem done by me &joan during antioch.

well, school was ok. had english. smth happen. then had social studies. was damn fun lah. mr.ow was joking with us. heh. then had maths, mr. lim came like 15 mins late.. haha it was so funny. he pretended to have a heart attack. then he threw a marker to sophia. &she threw it back.. everyone laugh &manage to learn something during maths.

then came physics. mr tan told me that he was shocked about my results. me too. but, mr. tna is like the happening teacher around campus la. heh. recess time heard that the biology students got themselves tangled up in a web with the school's authority. sad man. i can't say who is wrong and who is right... all i can say is nothing.

then after sch, me, jingy, sze &brendan went to jingy place to work out... damn funny lah... they kept talking about mg girls... heh... then we went to king albert park to buy food... bought sushi! yummy! then walked back... went to gym. then sauna, then steam bath. swim. sauna. steam bath. swim. sauna. jaccuzi. shower. went back...

oh wells,
tmr is a long day!
pray for me!

JoJo's song is making me cry everytime i listen to it... fuck!

hey,

life in school has been really freaky. there was rumors... stupid sec 2's. haha, i am attached with alec... haha... he isn't from fairfield... go figure out losers... haha... ok, today was kinda sad... flunked by physics test la, 7/30. lowest in class. stupid right! heh. musical is kinda stressing me up. but i am having fun! whoo hoo! yeah.

ciao!

too little too late,
JoJo

come with me
stay the night
just say the words but boy it dont feel right
what do ya expect me to say
(you know its just too little too late)
you take my hand
&you say you have changed
but boy you know your begging dont fool me
because to you its just a game
(you know its just too little too late)

so let me go now
'cause time has made me strong
i am starting to move on
i am gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone
&you know...

its just too little too late
a little too long
&i cant wait
but you know all the right things to say
(you know its just too little too late)
you say you dream of my face
but you dont like me
you are just a good chase
so be real
it doesnt matter anyway
(you know its just too little too late)

yeah yeah...
its just too little too late...
mmhmmm

i was young
&in love
i gave you everything
but it wasnt enough
&now you wanna communicate
(you know its just too little too late)
go find someone else
&letting you go
i am loving myself
you got a problem
but dont come asking me for help
'cause you know...

its just too little too late
a little too long
&i cant wait
but you know all the right things to say
(you know its just too little too late)
you say you dream of my face
but you dont like me
you are just a good chase
so be real
it doesnt matter anyway
(you know its just too little too late)

i can love with all of my heart, baby
i know i have so much to give
(i have so much to give)
with a player like you i dont have a prayer
that's the way to live
ohhhh... mmm nooo
its just too little too late
yeaah...

its just too little too late
a little too long
&i cant wait
but you know all the right things to say
(you know its just too little too late)
you say you dream of my face
but you dont like me
you are just a good chase
so be real
it doesnt matter anyway
(you know its just too little too late)

you know its just too little too late
you know its just too little too late

its just too little too late
a little too long
&i cant wait
but you know all the right things to say
(you know its just too little too late)
you say you dream of my face
but you dont like me
you are just a good chase
so be real
it doesnt matter anyway
(you know its just too little too late)

hello!

yesterday was pretty great besides that yesterday was my last session in youth alpha... due to my commitment in the school musical... will miss them all esp. brenda, kuhan, sam, joyce, adrian &audrey... mm... sometimes in life you must learn how to make sacrifies... &this is one... yeah... learnt about evil's work in yesterday's session... felt that someone was being an pain in the butt for me yesterday... but i did not let that spoil my mood... anw, sam went crazy during the talk... couple of others including me also went crazy... cos the guy that gave us the talk was bloody funny. after the sharings and the sessions...

we played TABOO! my fav! it was so so fun... words like bust &wierd things came out haha... then after like 5 rounds we left, went to tanglin halt for dessert... sam is super super funny ok. she was crappy about stupid things... haha... yeah... then me and brenda are going for piercings on friday! can't wait... plus david weekend is just next week... so so hyped up man...

then went back to church for meeting. haha. was quite sad, because the turn up was mainly kids from primary school &people who older than me didnt turn up... sad right? had antioch! haha.. host by gracie &bradley jonathan... haha... it was a super duper great job you guys did for us! really liked it... haha... then me &joan paired up to do some poem about jesus loving us and stuff... really so poetic... haha... i miss joan so much! she promised me gutiar lessons from december... but until now, received none! yeah...

my dearest angel called &i teared when we hung up. AGAIN. like wtf!

then i stayed up watching the germany match against portugal... supported both teams but germany is always first before the rest... was talking on the phone with anita during the match... &she agrees with my sis that i watch soccer worst than a chick. hur! but anyway i am happy that germany won... actually i expect 0-0 at full time. and then penalties... but nope! then went to sleep... nth much... went church... haha... ok gotta go.

love,
joavan :)

hey,

it has been a very happening week for me after wednesday... met this special person that cheer me up during this 3 days... ok...

this is what the person did to me;
-cheer me up
-made me cry
-comforted me with words
-turn me on
-speechless
-sad
-happy
-hyper.

lots of emotions. was rly lucky to meet this person... like an angel sent from God. well, i am selected for assistant stage manager for the musical... gotta buck up and be fully committed... hur hur... no more mondays, wednesdays &saturdays.... :( sad sad... hmm... anyone wanna support me? please come! please? haha, can't wait for tonight to talk to my angel... love you to bits...

haha... class today was quite ok... it was mr. ow's birthday... bought him a chipmunk from action city... chip... wanted to get dale... but no money... sad sad... haha... dang... i am like spending money like water... splash splash splash... haha... so funny. cant wait for next week... all hyped up to take over my role as assistant stage manager... WHAHAHA!

ok i shall shut my mouth.
bye.

Hey,



i am back. had subway in school for lunch... like how cool is that? seriously... every wednesday... even though the selections are limited, but still, i endulge myself to my tuna... yummy. haha... i still haven't complete my english essay. which is damn depressing... caspar says it's like reading a gay blog... oh well... timmy rate a 7 over 10... haha...



well... it is kinda sad that germany lost to italy... i knew this was coming... i predicted italy 3, germany 1... but this, this is worst. because when i woke up to see the score, it was 0-0 extra time. then... italy scored the winning goal... then in the next 2 mins... another goal... i was like... FUCK! heh. and it was 2 mins left to penalties... knn... argh... ok ok shant curse anymore... i'll be good. haha... well.. my relationships with my classmates is going that great after all... i don't mind going to some private school...



went for drama today... was afraid to see mr. pang as i skipped the june holidays rehearsals... haha... but he just said... 'welcome joavan, thank you for joinning us' and all the drama juniors just clapped for me... heh... they are damn funny. the songs in the musical are nice to listen to.






mmhmm... told ms. hia about me being asm... she said she'll think about it if mr. pang agrees... =D! yeah.. so please come and watch and support me! haha...



gotta go. take care,

joavan :)

Hey,


i love 'Jimmy Eats World'


they rock big time! ate at 'The Garlic Restuarant' just now... damn nice... upload pics sometime soon... mm... the food was damn good la... haha... maybe going to corduroy & finch on mummy's birhtday... can't wait!



cheeweers,

joavan :)