HEY...



sch's great... so far... new chinese teacher... new timetable... hmm... new classmates? i wish... yeah... life is good... borrowed a new book from the library... it's damn happening... heh... wonder why they didn't banned it from the school library...



ok.. this is a short one... will update more soon...



take care.



cheeweers!

I WANT THE CATHOLIC YOUTH BIBLE!



I WANT THE GERMANY ADIDAS WINDBREAKER!



I WANT THE REEBOK SHOE!



I WANT TO PLAY &OWN A GUITAR!



HUR HUR! TOO MANY WISHES! AHH...



MY WANTS FOR MY BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR...

THICKSKIN...

HEY HEY!



here is another emo song... why by nichole nordeman... ENJOY!



we rode into town the other day

just me and my daddy

he said i had finally reached that age

and i could ride next to him on a horse

that of course was not quite as wide



we heard a crowd of people shouting

and so we stopped to find out why

and there was that man

that my dad said he loved

but today there was fear in his eyes



so i said

'daddy, why are they screaming?

why are the faces of some of them beaming?

why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?

i bet that crown hurts him more than he shows

daddy, please cant you do something?

he looks as though he is gonna cry

you said he was stronger than all of those guys

daddy, please tell me why

why does everyone want him to die?'



later that day the sky grew cloudy

and daddy said i should go inside

somehow he knew things would get stormy

boy was he right

but i could not keep from wondering

if there was something he had to hide



so after he left i had to find out

i was not afraid of getting lost

so i followed the crowds

to a hill where i knew men had been killed

and i heard a voice come from the cross



and it said,

'father, why are they screaming?

why are the faces of some of them beaming?

why are they casting their lots for my robe?

this crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows

father, please cant you do something?

i know that you must hear my cry

i thought i could handle the cross of this size

father, remind me why

why does everyone want me to die?

when will i understand why?'



'my precious son, i hear them screaming

i am watching the face of the enemy beaming

but soon i will clothe you in robes of my own

jesus, this hurts me much more than you know

but this dark hour i must do nothing

though i have heard your unbearable cry

the power in your blood destroys all of the lies

soon youw ill see past their unmerciful eyes

look there below, see the child

trembling by her father side

now i can tell you why

she is why you must die'

hey hey...



i wanna go catholic junior college badly!

i dunno why?!? but i just wna go there!

hurhur... now i cannot afford to fail chinese...

must get at least a B4...

then all the rest A2...

english B3..
.
L1R5 = 15

L1R4 = 13



whee...

sch starting tmr....

&i painted my thumbs black...

how stupid of me?

grr... gotta get rid of it now....



bye bye :)

hello!



i just woke up from shitty dream. which really sucks. i had the world in my hands. everything was fine. i had the perfect partner... the perfect kids &the perfect grandchildren... i lived in a huge manison... which had a huge swimming pool at the back. with a tennis court &a gym. my kids were working for my hotel firm... which is a huge thing in the business world... man... i need not work... &all i was doing in my life was either going to church with my partner or having fun with my grandkids... anita was in my dream... she was my bloody neighbour for goodness sake... indeed it is a very good life... once in a while we will hold parties for our familes to socialise... ok here is the shitty part... i woke up &everything was back to normal... it just sucks!



yesterday... was on the phone with anita... had a great conversation with her... but she felt asleep while i was talking to her... haha... we talked about our retirement age... about us in a old folks home with our partners laughing at those teenagers losing their life by doing underage sex, smoking &drinking... haha... then she was talking about how the world will end and she will be last human being alive.. then i told her... you want to be the last human being alive because you want to laugh at us being dead right? you bloody bitch... then she just started laughing... bloody hell... anita's cow... anything i tell her, she'll just moo! so idiotic right?


heh. i gtg now...

later will be having alpha &antioch...

chao!


LOVELOVE =D

what kind of father would

take his own daughter right away,

&what kind of father might hate

his own daughter if she were gay.

i can only imagine what the first lady has to say

you have come a long way,

from whiskey and cocaine.



man...

i dont know whether to cry, to laugh or to smile.

seriously... she got on me all messed up...

man, its like i dont really like her.

but i have got feelings for her.

&she's 18 to top things off.



heh.

only 16 15, life is so mean,

what kind of curfew is at 10 PM

you saw my mistakes,

you watched my heart break

heard when i swore i never love again

when i was weak, unable to speak,

still i could call you by name,

&i said heartache healer, secret-keeper,

be my best friend and you said i am



man, i seriously love that song...

nichole nodeman- i am...

damn emo...



heh...

my mom is like damn happening...

she can tell me what happened in the oc!

damn like damn cool!



haha...

im hooked on to star world &hallmarks drama serials.

heh... so tai tai-ish...


blog tmr..



LOVE =D

I AM TOTALLY SHAGGED!



"Men, like rivers become crooked by following the line of least resistance."



YISS is one hell of an experience... you guys who wants to go should try it... i went to camp even though i was sick... my group mates were ok la... they were around my age la... six 15yrs old... and one 13yr old guy... so it wasn't that bad at all... heh... i met jacob there... yup.. our dorms' stink... but what the heck.. musn't complaint... then we went for session... it was ok... had mass... there was thought running in my head during mass because of the priest... heh.



im sucha idiot... whee... didnt eat lunch... skipped the activity... slacked ard... made friends with the serivce team... they are cool people... even though they are working adults.. they are coool! missed the water bombs fight... went to sleep in bunks... had dinner with the group... nth much...



then on friday woke up... felt damn shitty... no mood to eat la...then went back to sleep... then went for session... it wasnt that bad... then had mass... sharings... &chill out session... had quiet time... went adoration room... then prayed... went for dinner... couldnt eat finish my food... pai sei... then had healing session... damn shoik la... words cannot describe it... 'God's Grace is sufficent for me!'



then went to supper... then went adoration room with jon... he prayed while sleeping... i admire that man... heh. then i woke him up... and we went into our bunks...



saturday... felt shitty too... this time i slept until i missed th mass with th archbishop... grr! silly me... sad la... than had sleeping time... &a couple more sessions... then at night... praise &worship totally rocked! whee whee! jump jump.... haha... then had the holy spirit in our presence... i begin to speak in tongues man... praise GOD! yea... after that had victory praise... i dunno why they call it that?!? but it was damn happening... serious... a catholic version of 'new creation' or 'city haverst' HAPPENING!



sunday... shitty in the morning... haha... then went to clean up th areas... had commissioning mass... then we all left...



my experience in YISS has totally changed me... it rocks my socks & those who have participate in it...



GOD BLESS!

SICK! SICK!



"Strong people make as many and as ghastly mistakes as weak people. The difference is that strong people admit them, laugh at them, learn from them. That is how they became strong."



hey!

long time no update... hais... been sick recently, cos my brother passed it to me. &now i'm gna miss the YISS camp! shit la... i wanna go badly... hurhur! sad la. even if i'm feeling better, my mother &my brother wont let me go la. dammit. i dunno what to do tmr, friday, saturday &sunday. sucks.



anw, camp jeremiah rocks! seriously. i LOVE them so much! haha. first day wasn't that bad. execpt that bradley made me late. we reached there 1/2 hour later la. idiot! anw. people there are way way older then me... kidding la. they are like 1-2 yr older than me. yup. made alot new friends! haha.



went altarboys camp yesterday... was pretty bad cos there only 3 participants. the rest were all organisers &commitee members... but its fun cos we bleached &washed the robes. then we had lunch &dinner. slept &went home ard 7am cos i felt feverish. man! i wna go YISS badly! grr!



I MISS CAMP JEREMIAH

i love myself...



so egoistic! heh... anw, met liz just now... haha, she fucking wants me to enter MIDS unicampus la. fuck, thank god i didnt enter. or else i would be in the police station right now...



i models called me agn. told them that i misse the interview on friday cos i was 'sick'... heh. then my crankyslut called. she told me that her friend's friend could help me do a portfolio! man! i wish her friend's friend could help me. i wna be a model! :) get i nice body &rock the world! whahahaha



mmm... tmr should be packing for camp instead of today... i am so lazy to work my butt off!



gtg... will be back on sunday!



LOVE!

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH! THANKS GUYS!



"Let us be of good cheer, however, remembering that the misfortunes hardest to bear are those which never come."



yesterday had the best time of my life.

went my friends wedding in the morning. it was a small &quiet one. very nice! then rushed to blessed sacrament for youth alpha. made new friends- kulhan, phillip &jia yi or smth... the session was really fruitful! yep.



then i went home to get redy for gen's party! yea baby! went there, both the sisters were dosing off, heh, actually it was jac that was sleeping. since i was there, gen had to play hostess :( pity her!



then the bsc gang came + barney. heh. i kept whacking him lah! i know i am mean! whahaha... idiot! heh. then they gave out the photo frames that we made on friday. haha. the pics turned out really execpt for some. then we had dinner. i was sucha pig man, i took a huge serving of lagsania (whtever, it is called.) &sotong BALLS! heh. ate quiet alot. then i said smth to gen that really got her so pissed that she threw me into the pool!



then i stayed in the pool cos i am not allowed to enter their house WET! &no one else was wet... heh. then they threw barney &nathalie into the pool at the same time. how ridculous! heh. then it was eugene. &we kept dragging in people with th help of sangar. so when it was micheal's turn to get into th pool. he hugged sangar &threw him in it! heh. LOSER!



then we had in th pool playing funny games that made me laugh the loudest! GEN SEND ME THE PICS! took slutty pics of me with the help of gen. heh. played on the water slide. it was so fun! YAY! then one by one they left.



up to only me, micheal &alex. then suddenly we heard that my cousin got into an accident along tanglin road! blooooooody hell, that car diver that made a fucking illegal u-turn had to drag his fucking bike! what th hell is your brains man! thank god his finger was fractured. phew. btw general hospital service ROCKS! SUCKS!



we got back at 4 am. everyone was sleeping alr. then we also got ourselves into a dep sleep. &i woke up ard 7. so that only 3 hrs worth of sleep. heh. then rush to get change. then went for 8.15 am mass! i saw eric! he's so cute! :) heh.



then went back to bsc. helped in selling of cookies. heh. i am going for camp jeremiah! whoo hoo! heh. then came back & slept for another 5 hours. tmr gna pack for camp &here i go! whee!

hey! tmr's a long day! pray for me :)

ITS OVER! &I MISS THEM BADLY! ):



"Occasions do not make a man either strong or weak, but they show what he is."



mmm, three days has past. things happpen. sad ones &happy ones. i love my group, cos they don't really give me a problem. they are all cute &quiet. heh.



they trip to zoo was fun, we met interesting animals. heh... we saw a cute horsey... its was shorter than me... &its so cute... haha.



ystd was so happening man. went for mass. then prepared for the concert. took pics with the kids. &the facilitators ROCKS! heh. anw... i did the servins for the dinner ystd, practically give everybody a huge serving of tuna &mushroom melt. heh. then a huge addiction for the mash potatoes. ate LOTS of it. yummy! the doughnuts too!



the concert was a huge success! all thanks to the kids! well. they left, &we all shed tears. memories will still remain. then, we had to clean up... did a MASS CLEANING! heh. talked crap, words flew across the hallways.



well, me, ben &rachel were practically high cos we were playing with the bubbles &we couldnt stop laughing. heh. deprive childhood man! haha.



can't wait for saturday! :)



me, markv &liz


me &MISSIE!



the cute girls &me



WESTLEY!



tai tai &mini-mama

prison gates wont open up for me

on these hands and knees i am crawlin'

oh, i reach for you

well i am terrified of these four walls

these iron bars cant hold my soul in

all i need is you

come please i am callin'

and oh i scream for you

hurry i am fallin'



show me what its like

to be the last one standing

and teach me wrong from right

and i will show you what i can be

say it for me

say it to me

and i will leave this life behind me

say it if it's worth saving me



heaven's gates wont open up for me

with these broken wings i'm fallin'

and all i see is you

these city walls aint got no love for me

i am on the ledge of the eighteenth story

and oh i scream for you

come please i am callin'

and all i need from you

hurry i am fallin'