Won't be blogging here so often anymore.
I think it's time to post on my LJ my personal stuff alrdy.
Blogger isn't so safe anymore, for me.

I'm now trying to get rid of past...
Be gone!

I had people that fooled me
&I had people that toy-ed with my feelings.

So now, I'm using th time making th best out of me
&being someone that I can be.

&to you guys,
Three words for yea'll; GET A LIFE!

Another F&N period gone. 3 hours. Poof!



Haha. But atleast we're like having fun here.
Submiting our quiz answers to our friendster group.
It's like uber fun!



Sigh, I hope that drama's farewell/prom will be great...
Just hope so.

Guess what? I'm craving for Swensens!
I wanna go today after farewell.
Anyone keen? Text me at 98506423!

Haha.
Sigh, th past few days have been emo for me...
Been crying at night, this is like so wrong.
My sorrows and my pain is taken away...

I need you. I just need you so much!
But where are you?

I hate it when people say things about me as if they knew me.

SO!
I'm just saying if you say such things about me,
why not write a book about me then since you know my life inside out?
Go ahead, predict my future then... if not just shut up ok?
Just shut up, I don't your words.
I don't need the friendship we shared, cos it was fake all along...
You need not talk about th food I eat or what I wear, it my life.
I write my own stories, I don't need your extra comments.

It's just rubbish get it?

So get your low-life ass out of my face cos I don't need it.

&pls don't think this post is about you.
Not everything is about you,
I would rather spend my time ranting other things besides you!
So think twice before you assume!

I seriously hate you so much after what you said in physics class, bitch. A racist remark definitely overules other remarks and you come up with one just to hurt me straight in the heart. Ugh. Thought you were nice, but I was wrong. I was just superly naive! Ugh. I just wanna wish Timo all th best with her luh.

Sigh. I'm now currently facing a downfall in my life. It just sucks when you are open to that someone &then you tell him how you feel. Hoping that he'll like you back in turn, but you get turned down instantly when he says he's seeing someone... That really sucks yea... Ugh, but somehow this song by gym class heroes gets my mood going... Love them!



¬ forgeting this Rihanna song...



I am trying to be strong but this emotions are taking me over... Ugh, just to tell you know. I can't get over you. Period!

Sigh, today for me was a long day... a very very long day indeed. I can't even believe I even got up so early that I reached my working place at 8.45 a.m. Like wtf? But thank God I went early as today Sentosa had like 2-3 family day's event going and the queue for the SenEx was looooooong. Haha.

Then work started as usual... &then it started to rain! Yayness! Okay... I don't really wanna blog about work for now. I wanna blog about smth else. Well, currently everything is not going well. Therefore I shall stop here. Sorry.

Recently,

I got myself thinking whether I should go for counselling about my orientation. My friends says its bad, but there is this part of me wanting to let people know. Will it come to them as a shock? Or will it be a disappointment for some? I just don't know. I want to be heard, be accepted by others like how my friends has accepted me.

Or do I just want to be well known by everybody?

Counselling is a dangerous act for me if I so happen to part take in it. I heard everything that I tell to the counsellor will typed out and be sent to the principal. &It doesn't just end there, the principal might also let the teachers know about it. Sigh. I just don't know. Is it worth my risking my future to do this? I just don't know. I hope you guys like the new layout!

Cheers!

Everyone needs compassion
&Love that never fails
Let mercy fall on me
When everyone needs forgiveness
Kindness of the Saviour
The Hope of the nation

Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything that i believe in
Now i surrender

Shine a light in
&let the whole world see
Singing, for the glory of the risen king
Jesus, Shine a light
&let the whole world see
Singing for the glory of the risen king

Haha.

It's so stupid when you ask someone whether they are gay and they tend to make a big hoo-haa about it. Tsk. There was this idiot online of which I shan't name. He viewed me on friendster luh, so I decided to be kind and nice to view him back. &I realised that he was connected to my AJ's friends &since his school was near mine, I decided to add him as I thought he would be a great friend to come in handy as I have few guy friends.

So one day, he came online. I asked him, whether he was AJ out of random cos I was dead bored &tired... &then blah blah, he became so protective about th AJ word and started asking me what was it. I told him it was nth, but he insisted. So fine, I told him. He became so protective as if I wanted to rape him. He started asking whether I was a fag, why did I think that he was a fag and then he made a whole lot of assumption that I was one.

The next part wasn't nice at all, he started flamming me for no bloody reasons. Gosh, if you think that I am gay, delete me from your contact list. Why bother typing things out to hurt me. I know you are trying to bring me down. But too bad, I am strong. &he went on about saying that he knows my cousin and that he's goona tell her about me being Queer. &I went like 'Go ahead, I don't bother. Seriously.' Next he asked me to stop talking to him, I was practically laughing inside my head thinking, 'You are the one that kept flamming me, saying all that shit &stuff. Why should I stop talking to you. Instead you should be the one.' Tsk.

Finally, it took him atleast five minutes to shut up. &I was a happy boy again! If only I told him straight in the face saying, 'Yeah, I'm queer. You got a problem.' But this would definitly stir up more problems. &whats stupid was when he said, 'look at your msn nick, so gay.' My msn nick was '&I hate how much I love you boy...' It was part from the song, 'Hate how much I love you' by Rihanna. Tsk, he even told me, 'You are like so good with your words. Bet you are good with **** too.' Seriously, what a loser. He even has friends on friendster that are AJ. I wish him good luck! At the end of this, I don't hate that guy neither do I like him. But I just want him to know, that we, queer people, have our own rights to do anything alright? Perood!

&At the end of all this, I'm still a happy boy.

Vic, pls pray that this time things will work?

I just hate you. Period

School was like uh, sucky?
Fever was really getting bad to worst luh. Tsk...
I just love th topic on locus! It's just so fun! fun! fun!
Draw here, draw there. It's just so fun.

Stayed back for extra lessons for chinese with the help of Mr. Pang,
Felt so gondu while he was helping me out with my compo. Tsk.
I pray that on the day of examination, the questions will be simple?

Throw it away,
Forget yesterday,
I'll make the great escape.
I won't hear a word they say,
They don't know me anyway.
Watch it burn,
Let it die,
Cause I am finally free, tonight...

I'm not the type to get my heart broken.
I'm not the type to get upset and cry.
'Cos I never leave my heart open,
Never hurts me to say goodbye.
Relationships don’t get deep to me,
Never got the whole in love thing.
&someone can say they loved me truly,
But at the time it didnt mean a thing.

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round,
&deep inside, my tears ill drown.
I'm loosing grip, what’s happening?
I stray from love, this is how I feel.

This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
&it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
&I got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what,
You'll never see me cry.

Did it happen when we first kiss?
Cos it's hurting me to let it go,
Maybe cos we spent so much time,
&I know that is no more.
I should have never let you hold me baby,
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart.
I didn't give it to you on purpose,
Can't figure out how you stole my heart.

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round,
&deep inside, my tears ill drown.
I'm loosing grip, what's happening?
I stray from love, this is how I feel.

This is how I feel

This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
&it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
&I got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what,
You'll never see me cry.

How did I get here with you,
I'll never know.
I never meant to let it get so personal,
&after all I tried to do.
To stay away from love with you.
I'm broken-hearted,
I can't let you know.
&I Won't Let It Show,
You won't see me cry.

This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
&it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
&I got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what,
You'll never see me cry.

This time was different,
Felt like I was just a victim.
&it cut me like a knife,
When you walked out of my life.
Now I'm in this condition,
&I got all the symptoms,
Of a girl with a broken heart.
But no matter what,
You'll never see me cry.

All my life..

I tried so hard, can't seem to get away from misery,
Man I tried so hard, but always be a victim of these streets.
It Ain't my fault cause I try to get away but trouble follows me,
&still I try so hard, hopin one day they'll come and rescue me.

This sucks.
The feeling of wanting to want by someone is getting stronger.
I am not sure whether I need it now, or do I lust for it.
It just so wrong. My life isn't that screwed up as before.
Tsk.

I gotta be stong.
I gotta take control of the situation before it gets worst.
I gotta do whatever it takes to make me strong...

But how?

My results are not up to standards. Fuck!
I need to get atleast 4 distinction for N'levels!
Tsk, wake up!

If not, I'm dead shit!

Hello!

I'm so sorry for not updating, been really busy with school &work. N's and prelims are so like around th corner now & I just had my N'level English oral on Monday, wasn't that easy at all luh. Tsk! Hope I can make it luh. My fever currently is like making things worst. Apparently, I made my closest friends fall ill, damn dumb right? Tsk.

Anyway, My sister gave birth to a baby boy last week, 04/07/07. I'm an Uncle! Tsk, I suddenly feel so old luh. Haha, the little boy's name is Caian & he's so cute I swear. He likes to stick out his tongue whenever I play with him, maybe he just dislikes me! Haha. Yesterday while my mom's making him burp after feeding him, I snatched away his milk bottle &he started crying luh. I'm just so mean! But, I'm not gonna do that anymore, if not the next time he might just throw up at me! Haha... Well, my grades now are like a roller-coaster, that bad I swear. Plus, I have not been catching up with alot sleep too! Tsk.

Well, I think I better get going. My desktop's down at the moment so using my sister's laptop to do this entry. Hope to blog regulary soon. Love you guys!

Cheers!