I went to work on monday realizing that I had to cut my hair ASAP.
So met up with Viccintta, who was meeting Glenys, at Wheelock.
OMG, I love th keychain Glenys got for me from Paris!

Anyway, went down to FarEastPlaza to find a place to cut my hair.
Cos you know I prefer my hair cut at this shop at BukitMerah which is $10.
But we were hungry, so ate at th usual spot.
After which I got my hair cut. :D

Me waiting to get my hair cut.
Viccintta got to wash my hair luh!
I was so scared, but she gave my head a nice massage!
The girls had fun drying my hair!
&I look like this now.
Well, its something new?

I am just fool, really.
My mind's playing with me.

It's just so silly.
It's like when you know deep down that it's impossible,
Yet you still bother to chase after it.

I don't really know what's wrong.
I feel so insane, I just wanna scream so loud.

Oh my love, loving you was torture...

Cause the possibility that,
You would ever feel the same way about me.
It's just too much, just too much.

Why do I keep running from the truth,
All I ever think about is you.
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,
&I just got to know.

Do you ever think,
When you're all alone?
All that we can be,
Where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath,
When I look at you?
Are you holding back,
Like the way I do?
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away.
But I know this crush ain't going away, going away...

Oh god please, please help me!
I don't wanna go through this again...
I wanna know if its true, if its worth th shot.
I don't wanna get heart-broken again.

Is it wrong to love again?

Well, Red Camp 5 is over...
Kinda sad though, miss all those people there!
& really, it is awesome shit yo!
HAHA.


Day 1
I went alone as I thought no one from Fairfield was going.
So reached th convention centre bout like 8plus?
Kinda early luh, met Ruth at registration! :D

It was quite boring at first cos I had no friends.
So I was like texting all my Ngee Ann friends to see what where they up to.
But sadly most of them were morons! HAHAHA!
So this group of Fajar Sec students asked me to join them as I was aloneeee! ):

Started off with the tribe cheers.
HAHAHA, our tribe is simply awesome.
All th IJ girls, massive screaming.
&Amar was like my tribe GL. :D

We then had th CCA experience.
Oh Barracuda!
It's so so so awesome luh...
But I can't like sway and play the instrument together.
I suck at multi-tasking at times.

Lunch was provided by KFC.
Made more new friends there, from Commonwealth & Gan Eng Seng.
HAHA. Then we went to the HMS.
Had some panda origami thingy, puppet show & magic show...
It was like, uh ok luh.

Then to FMS!
Saw Farah &Alfred! :D
Awesome equipment they have there luh...
But I have to stay away from the creative industry, no good for me!

Back to Convention Centre again...
More cheering, I swear, I felt like I was a cheer-whore!
LOL.
Then we're done for the day, I was like bloody tiredd!

Day 2
Stupid 61 had some issues with its doors closing, ugh.
As usual, reached early...
Met this dude who's like my senior from Fairfield.
I can't really recognize him luh, neither could he...

We went to HS for nursing.
It was quite cool to see all th equipment!
But th only sick part was the colon thingy.
Imagine having a second asshole on your tummy, fucking sick yo!

Next was LSCT,
It was quite okay luh.
I kinda like what they presented,
Mainly most of the things were in relation to Chemistry & Biology.
I got like 2 small plants from it.

Lunch was Breeks!
Huge load of Pasta man, not really in fav for it.
But no choice lah, just eat lo.
Shiok Shiok only!

Then it was to BA, ♥.
It was fun, I so wanna go International Business!
Had some Stamp creating thingy, we won 3rd. (:

Next, went to my ICT, ehhhhh, it was nothing much.
But thank you Zaiman for accompanying me!
If not, I'll just kill myself luh!

Back to Convention Centre for MASS DANCE!
Totally love it! :D
It was dinner & then back home.

Day 3
I swear 61 was testing me today, th usual bus didn't turn up.
So, I waited for like 30mins?
Tskkkkkkkkkkk!

However, I reached NP like 20mins later.
So it wasn't that bad!
Had th finale of the Chronicles of Red Camp.
Medusa, th Centurion Queen, is like HOT!
Amar was funny being th Centurion King! :D


Then we went to SoE to build some structure which was a failure.
I mean, most of th teams that won were like all GIRLS!
Like wtf?
Lunch was Pizza, not that filling but yummy! :D
Had th MASS DANCE & th Cheer Competition.
It was Madness &we made record as well! :D

Centurions won the 'Enchanted Tribe' Award!
It was like sad as it was like th somewhat last event in Red Camp 5.
Then had Yoshi for dinner &somemajor-camwhoring session. :D
But the Hip-Hop night was like th BEST-AWESOME EVENT EVER!

&as much as I miss Red Camp 5.
I miss my voice even more! )):

You want somebody, just anybody,
To lay their hands on your soul tonight.
You want a reason to keep believin',
That some day you're gonna see the light...

Cos plainly darling, you're desperate...

That's taken from David Archuleta's Desperate...
Quite a nice song for those singles out there, like me. LOL!
It's just mainly about loneliness,
I can't stand the sight of me being lonely when I grow.

HAHA.
Hell no.
I don't wanna end up like some ticko-peh please?

I just need you,
Hear me out this time please?

Gah!

I'm so bored man...
Guess, I'm too hooked on to DJ Max 2 & Locoroco 2.
Well, least I have my PSP to keep me entertained!

I so do need a freaking haircut!
I want to color my hair too, but still considering whether should I do it.

Sigh.

Tomorrow's RED CAMP 5.
I hope I meet new faces & nice people!

Friends.

How do you define the meaning of friends?
Do they tease you unnecessarily with crude words that hurt you?
Do they criticize you for being what you are?
Do spread rumors about you to other people making you feel so paranoid?

Guess my definition of friends was utterly despicable.
I had various types of friends from the age of 5 right up to 17.
&oh boy, it was indeed a roller-coaster ride.

Friends in my Pre-School years were awesome.
Nothing bitter nor bitchy happened.
Just minor disputes where we say things like,
'I don't friend you', 'he hit me'...
But at the end of the day, it's all resolved.
No tension.

As for Primary School, it was somewhat a bittersweet experience.
You start to learn the various meaning of friends.
There are the 'backstabbing', 'wannabe-thugs',
'I-wanna-be-your-friend-cause-I-think-you're-cool' & many more.
I had my first friendship broken
&boy it wasn't pleasant.
You've gotta move on, people change so will you.

When I got in Secondary School, the so-called 'best-years-of-your-life'.
It really wasn't the BEST YEARS at all.
More like taunting & traumatic years for me.
Racism & discrimination was the common topic in school.
Sadly for me, I was targeted at both.
I don't hate myself for being what I am today, honestly.

In fact, they only thing I would turn back the time is for better people.
I am unique, I was created this way.
But somehow or somewhat, they just couldn't stand the sight of me.
Heh, maybe because they didn't look at themselves at the mirror first.
Then they start to tease you with names as they know that you're weak.

5 years of that has passed on & I'm glad that's over.
Honestly speaking, girls (to me) are much better friends than guys.
Well apart from the massive bitchin' & backstabbing, they can really make good friends.
As for guys, their ego matters more to them then their friendship.
Making another guy feel smaller then him is a thrill.
Sometimes, they really just don't know when to function their brain at times too.
Which is why that there's an increasing growth in Lesbianism in Singapore, sad ain't it?

Think twice before you call someone your friend.
Don't just make him your friend because he helped you with a favor.
Don't befriend him cos you think he cool & loaded with money.
See it from the inside, not the outside.
Cos sometimes, the outside may look pleasing while the inside is much of a screwed-up case.

Friends can make uplift you,
Sometimes they just know how to ruin your life as well.

I don't really know what's wrong.
I think its the post-exam syndrome.

I am starting to miss those days,

Where I would wake up in the wee hours of the morning,
Just to get ready for school.
&reach school bout 6.30a.m. just to gaze at the clouds.
I realized at times that I was a mean bitch in school.
When the guys in my class were just plain ASSHOLES.

Where we gossip about random stuff,
&pretend to listen to the teachers in class.
The usual hangout at canteen was the superb best one ever!

Sigh, I miss Fairfield.
Come to think of it, time really past fast when you don't know it.

Well, the exams have finally ended.
I guess, based on all the papers, I can pass.
Not sure whether will it be a good score to get me into the business school tho.

I think I screwed my O's big time. :(