are we growing up or just going down, it's just a matter of time until we're all found out. take our tears and put them on ice, i swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light. we are the therapists pumping through your speakers, delivering just what you need. we are well read and poised, we are the best boys, we are the chemists who have found the formula. to make your heart swell and burst. no matter what they say, dont believe a word

cause i keep singing this lie if you keep believing it


th mondays blues! ilove th song above &where is you boy tonight... so happening... had chinese for th 1st period... aiyo... theres no point for going chinese lessons cos everyones arguing w her... then had humanites! got back test paper... was happy.. 6/10 even though it wasnt my best... but i still passed!... for th draft PPR... i got an A2 (74.6%)... sorry guys! im just so happy with my results so let me enjoy my GLORY! damn scared that caspar will beat me... arghh! anw... "FREE PERIOD"... actually... caspar is not a bad dude after all... i guess? he was damn friendly towards me... i think this only will happen once in a life time... hahas... RECESS... was damn BORING! had english lesson... newspaper article... everyones into th sex video &'singapore porn'...

to tell you th truth... its sick for someone to video them fucking each other... seriously its damn stupid! but i must say... the video was happening... &its totally sick... cant imagine them watching it over &over agn... its sick! pervs... &its porn.. &you're underage... i dont understand why my classmates wna watch it... i found it SICK SICK SICK SICK! ... had life skills... i seriously dont like my form teacher... &i miss mrs. tan &ms. lim.... you'll regret something when you dont start to treasure it... mr. ho isn't th best teacher nor th worst (i've seen worst!)... well he just dont really understand us... hais... sch ended.. went to see acjc peeps... hais... no one was there )): ... dissappointed... so was joanne! walked ard sch... boring... went canteen w joy... maths remedial postponed... argh! sat w SZE! i just love bullying him... whahahaha... i knw your secret! SZE loves ____. i think shes okay?!? i guess whahaha.... went for drama... Bo0!... anw... kailin &natalie xu are th best seniors anyone could have ((:

where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman. maybe he wont find out what i know: you were the last good thing about this part of town. when I wake up, I'm willing to take my chances on the hope i forget that you hate him more than you notice i wrote this for you. you need him. i could be him... i could be an accident but im still trying. thats more than I can say for him. where is your boy tonight? i hope he is a gentleman.



blogging agn... i maybe going to zouk on th 16th ((: if NO one stops me... i shall pray that it will never happen... hais... this sucks... tml its sch agn... back to th books.... fuck...

your love for me came as a waterfall, flowing inside me like never before. your love for me, something i didnt see. but baby, i know better now... dont wanna love you if you dont love me, dont wanna need you when you wont need me too, dont wanna tell you this now, but it wouldnt be right, if I didnt tell you this tonight.


its sunday!! tml is monday.. gosh... i havent hand up th chemistry project... damn! im so screwed!! ah!! her phone got confiscated... therefor th weekend was a boring one... hais... went for 9a.m. service... was an early bird i guess? mm... th church planning sucks!... no co-ordination! sucks to th core... in th end my dad had to help out instead... th buliding-project ppl dont even know how to inform th parishoners a month eariler about th car park thingy... hais... see... going to church will also cause you stress... tsk tsk!

baby if i act like that, that guy will call me back. what a paparazzi girl, i don't wanna be a stupid girl. baby if i act like that, flipping my blonde hair back. push up my bra like that, i don't wanna be a stupid girl


heys.. its saturday morning... im still fucking sick... brr! damn... why do i always sleep damn early... had two missed calls ystd; anita &mysterious person... argh... today;s plan... stay at home... watch sweet november... i think its a sad romantic story... hais... love is nth... th song "im sprung" rocks i guess? i only dont like when he goes " you do do do do do do do do do do do..." its damn funny &lame at th same time... watched couple of movies today &ystd... hais... i really wna go OBS sabah badly... why cant mr. ho let me pay by installment... my dad has to pay for my bro's education so he cant pay th full amt... argh... i just dont understand why some teachers dont understand us! mrs. tan, ms. ho, mr. ow, ms. liang, ms. shamsiah &mr. lim sc are those few who understands us youths... seriouslly... this sucks... i think im gonna drop e maths... cos th school doesn't allow me to tkae a maths... argh... i wna go tourism... but im now gonna aim for ACS IB... hahas that even harder... but it is still worth a try right? now updating songs onto my iShuffle... argh... damn sick &fucking sian now... mm.. shall upload more pics now...

stop right there, well i never should've said that, it's the very moment that I wish that I could take back.

gees... today ended quite FAST! hahas. had physics in th morning... velocity... BORING!... chinese... test la... was quite HARD i guess... recess... social studies... test- sri lanka... maths... th test was postponed la... phew! maple is sucha twerp hee hees! chemistry! th last test of th week!... WHEE!

was pissed off with someone... well its my fault... i shouldnt have asked him to get me all those things... i been too much... i have asked for too much from him... im been th jerk... dont always think you're wrong... youre th good one... ive been mean to you all th while... i am an ass... im sorry!

hey... damn pissed off ystd la... now they say cannot take A MATHS... just when i was about to like th bloody subject... they said NO! wth! seriously damn pissed tml got FOUR tests; maths, chem, social studies &chinese... wth! today had food &nutrition... cooked SEAFOOD... grilled fish &fish fritters... hahas... its DAMN nice... hahas... cos me &beverly cooked it... hahs... we're damn mean during F&N... ahhas... cannot say we what we did... then ltr had some bag &locker check... cos someone lost his video camera... dunno who lah... but then so leh chay... must open th locker then must let th teacher check our bag... who in th world will bring a video cam to sch? unless its th media club's one la... hahas... then had RECESS... we dicussed about going to johor during th hols... mmm.. not a bad idea i guess? a day trip to johor... then had english... it was damn hilarious... then had social studies... had to talk about th difference between roman catholics &protestants... beverly didnt know that mother mary was born without sin... all th other students were shocked &was thinking that i was talking rubbish... they were like"how can mary be born without sin?".. i just stood there &smile... like a BLOODY TWERP... arghh... then had chem... damn sian... had FC... talked about the o'level results... hais... now got no chance in getting into tourism... no additional maths... if lets say; english- B3, chinese- D7, combined science- B3, combined humans- A2, maths- A2 & food &nutrition- B3... L1R4 =13 points... wth... its still not good enough... i think i'll drop o'level maths... so that i can take additional maths as a private canidate... arghh... damn pissed la... knn... no joy doesnt wna take additional maths... fcuk...

CAMWHORE!

me... waiting to go to sch...

me being a spastic TWERP!

watcha' looking at?

drunk over vanilla

this image is so fcuking nice ((:

hey... using my brothers lappy..
hais.. this sucks.. have to prepare for ss..
cos... beverly didnt come to sch today and i &liangfu were th only two catholics in th class..
hais.. it sucks being descriminated... i dont care if you guys try &bring down my religion... i can withstand the pain... you know what... i have a deeper faith... so... beware! (:

hahas... i so mean... hahas...

these people says God,
honor me with their words,
but their heart is really far
away from it is no use for them to worship me.
because they teach human rules as though they were my laws
-matthew 15:8-9

i have given up on giving up slowly
i am blending in so you will not even know me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate

&this one last bullet you mention
is my one last shot at redemption
cause i know to live you must give your life away

&i have been housing all this doubt
&insecurity
&i have been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
&i have been dying to get out
&that might be the death of me
&even though there is no way of knowing where to go
i promise i am going

because i got to get out of here
i am stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistake
i got to get out of here
&i am begging you
i am begging you
i am begging you to be my escape

i have given up on doing this alone now
cause i have failed and i am ready to be shown how
you have told me the way, and now i am trying to get there

&this life sentence that i am serving
i admit, that i am every bit deserving
but the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

because i got to get out of here
bause i am afraid that this complacency is something i cannot shake
i got to get out of here
&i am begging you
i am begging you
i am begging you to be my escape

&i am a hostage to my own humanity
self detained and forced to live in this mess i have made
&all i am asking is for you to do what you can with me
but i cannot ask you to give what you already gave

i fought you for so long
i should have let you win
oh, how we regret those things we do

&all i was trying to do
was save my own skin
oh, but so were you.

>>relientK, be my escape ((:

hahas... steph intro to me this template...
so i decided to use it &i wondered what kind of music do they play...
i listened to it...
IT ROCKS!!

sch sucks today...
aft. sch, me &joanne saw smth sick...
i think acjc waterpolo guys are sick!
hahas... sry...
ok... tml i shall blog agn ((:

WHEE!
& imiss everything
& everything is happening so fast

it's funny how a man only thinks about the (beep!)
you got a real big heart, but i'm looking your (beep!)
you got real big brains, but i'm looking at your (beep!)
girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your (beep!)

i don't give a (beep!)
keep looking at my (beep!)
'cause it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my (beep!)
i'm a do my thing while you're playing with your (beep!)

>>pussycatdolls, BEEP!

this what i get for lying for my class...
a scolding over th phone by my form teacher...
being a treasurer is a hard job...
you have to make sure everyone pays up...
you have to make sure everyone pays correctly...
you have to make sure no one steals the cash.. (it alr happened)
you have to lie for your friends even though they didnt pay...
a scolding from mr. ho...
i still havent tell him th truth la...
im planning to write him a letter on monday
&passing it to him on tuesday...
i feel so guilty...
&i still hope that he allows me to go to obs (sabah)...
arghh...

th week was ok la...
hais... maths test today lah...
flunked so badly...
argh... no a maths... )):
sadsad...
blog tml (no mood)