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I don't know if I've ever felt like this before
But I'm sure that the way I feel
I don't want it to go
'Cause I've cried my share of tears and I've sang my share of blues
But to keep you over here
I'll do what I got to do

so baby call on me
Whether day or night
I'll never leave

You don't have to be alone
I'll come anywhere you want
Baby just pick up the phone and call on me
See you and I
I wanna be your only love affair
See there it go
See there it go Mama

See I never met a girl that could break me down
Its like I get caught in the middle
I get caught up a little anytime she's around
I be posted, waitin' on standby
Lookin' to catch a hit
I'm doin' whatever, whenever
Never forget I said I'd be here when you want
To get what you need, if you wanna receive
Oh, Please believe you could

Call on me
Whether day or night
I'll never leave

You don't have to be alone
I'll come anywhere you want
Baby just pick up the phone and call on me
See you and I
Baby-I wanna be your only love affair
See there it go
See there it go Mama

Call On Me
When need someone who cares
Say the words and I'll be here
I can meet you anywhere
Call on Me
Anytime that you please
be whatever you want
Be whatever you need
'Cause you're the one I love baby

Just call on me- whether day or night
I'll never leave
You don't have to be alone- I'll come anywhere you want
Baby just pick up the phone and call on me
See you and I
I'm gonna be your only love affair
See there it go
See there it go, Mama.

It don't matter where you go
I'll come anywhere you want me to
It don't matter near or far
It's like... Anything you say- I'll do.
And it don't matter where you go
I'll come anywhere you want me to
And it don't matter, near or far
It's like.. Anything you say- I'll do.

(Yeah, Yeah, Yeah)

heyy! in school now (: sigh, th councillor interview didnt go well after all you know? sigh... btw, i passed my emaths test! 9/15 woots! haha, my slut won me by 1mark, gee! ): but good job for her! haha. then met up w liangfu to go to maple's house to mug... haha, actually we cabbed there due to liangfu who was like late luh. haha. went there, ate pasta made by her maid. its like super uber tasty... haha, bought her puma bag which is like damn nice la. haha

then studied for awhile. haha, actually didn't study la. mmm. bel broke her toilet bowl flush. haha it's like damn damn funny lah... haha... left around like 7plus. the bus ride back was rather funny. haha, all thanks to bel la! haha. went home...

called gerald later, mmm... something happen... &only vic &joy knows. haha. cannot wait for this saturday's oral examination man! haha...

blog later. ciao!

boy, that song is stuck in my head. anyway just came back from studying @ ridout mac w my slut &brandon! gee! managed to do only physics MCQ &couple of questions from maths paper 1. damn! after that, we were bored so cam-whored a bit! haha. just love my slut! haha.

school today was rather stressful though, had many things inside my head, went to school late too! but, i saw th ACSi dude! wakaka! had chapel, SZE sang luh, so hot! haha. but sad thing, can't really hear his voice! GO DADDY! haha (:

had p.e, played captain ball with th girls, jing jie, ivan, sze &daryl! so fun luh. heard k'neth chum's eye was bleeding due to smth luh, poor dude! free period was stressful as i couldn't concerntrate on social studies! ugh! english lesson was rather fruitful, i would say, manage to learn smth from it. haha, social stuides came, couldnt finish th paper in time luh! grr!

after school, met th musical gang for julien &my birthday celebration. they bought mooncakes for us, well for once it was a change. haha. really love it. THANKS GUYS!

had to do my maths test. ahh! prepared to fail! ):

goona mug, text me if yeah still awake.
lovelove!

sigh, results were annouced.

jonathan didn't win, oh wells. i have to accept th fact. so now have to get used to hady. hehe. anyway, jon is are my idol! haha, i sound like all those die-hard fans luh! haha. kk. anyway, th song for this yr finalist 'you give me wings' (or whatever it is) is much better then 'i believe"

haha,
ciao!

i just really wonder what will i be without my other half ): even though we weren't even in th same class in sec2 but our friendship remainded strong. though at times where she'll spent more time with her boyfriend &her girlfriend then with me but i do treasure everytime we have fun in maths? (don't you?) i love you my slut.<333! anyway, we both are supporting jonathan in SG idol, lets hope that he wins!

GO JONATHAN!

love you babe!

wolfgang { i dont need a man, heh, yeah right! } says:
hows th song? (blog song)

♦BANANA CHANGES a second i feel; another and its gone. Is it so hard ♦ says:
fine:D

♦BANANA CHANGES a second i feel; another and its gone. Is it so hard ♦ says:
i watched e video before

♦BANANA CHANGES a second i feel; another and its gone. Is it so hard ♦ says:
very fast say!

wolfgang { i dont need a man, heh, yeah right! } says:
i know

wolfgang { i dont need a man, heh, yeah right! } says:
my eyes were hurting

wolfgang { i dont need a man, heh, yeah right! } says:
haha

♦BANANA CHANGES a second i feel; another and its gone. Is it so hard ♦ says:
haha sexy girls mah!

♦BANANA CHANGES a second i feel; another and its gone. Is it so hard ♦ says:
of course eyes so blinding

wolfgang { i dont need a man, heh, yeah right! } says:
-.-''

you rock my world luh! haha

well, went back to no school today, came bk empty handed ):
so much for a birthday! humph!

things in maths class gotten way overboard.
qilin, enen, maple &bel came in shouting;
"happy birthday JOAVAN!"
then mr. lim drew a birthday cake for me,
so funny lah.
he apologised saying that he did that in a hurry!
haha...

lessons were as usual.

MOMMY! i want my absolut.<333!

&enjoy th song, will upload pics soon!
cheers.

ok, jun thot i meant smth esle by th sms untill he saw my blog. oh wells. he changed his mind. mm. i really like you dude!

(: woots!

well, went for 10.30 mass, actually i served it. my last &final mass in th society. i'm quitting for good. i guess?

then headed down to marina to meet junjie. well, i thot things could work out but it didn't in th end. ): watched a movie w him. john tucker must die. it was a nice show. thanks, jun, for th movie. really appreciated it. but now seems like we could only be friends now. oh wells.

headed home, dispute between family members lah. so fucking irritating. spoil my mood! fuck! sigh. no point. bloody racist, what adrian told me yesterday was so true la. oh wells. had to close my trevvy account my brother saw it. damn! sian!

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,
It's over.

How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.

So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.

Dating By Sign
All the astral intelligence you'll ever need

To Know Me: I can't help it if I'm a bit vain. I love to flirt, and will take any opportunity that comes up my way to explore all the ways I'm attracted to you. Save the intellectual talk for someone else though; I'm impressed more with your knowledge of pop-culture trivia....

Is to Love Me: I'll put down people who put on airs, and I'm often unable to fully kick back and relax — even in familiar situations. I can be hard on myself, and sometimes that affects my close relationships.

Read My Mind: I'm not proud of it, but I sometimes cut off contact with friends and lovers for no apparent reason. I'll know why — but will you? It's hard for me to share what's at my emotional center; instead, I'll only display the more balanced me.

Read My Lips: Don't you want me, baby?

Seduction By Sign
Any heart in the zodiac can be pierced with your arrow.

The Beauty of Balance: The shortest path to a Libra's heart has always been the straight and narrow. These charming, gentle creatures are never as composed as they appear; it takes a lot of effort to keep those scales balanced. Approach their tightrope walk carefully, avoiding head games that might trip you up.

Libras want nothing more than your undying love. Failing that, they'll take an honest roll in the hay. But remember, there's a difference between a sincere pounce and an overly blunt assault. There's no need to hold back that forbidden fruit, but a sweet candy coating will make it all the more appetizing.

Seduction Mantra: Tip the scales.

You Know It's Working When: It's all about the sweet nothings. The more a Libra whispers, the merrier he or she is. And as always, never leave a Libra hanging; divulge right back, as often as possible. As the compliments and confessions grow, you'll know just how hooked your Libra lover is.

Astro-Profiles
What does your sign say about your personality?

Style, wit and charm define the ever-lovable Libra, the member of the zodiac who's engaged in an interminable search for balance and harmony. Balancing business and pleasure is among your foremost challenges because you tend to labor like a locomotive. You've never settled for routine or mundane roles at work or at play. And why should you?

You're a natural-born leader. That's why you can preside over any frontier you settle. Your rugged individualism gives you a transcendental lift. Experience has taught you to trust your intuition and self-reliance. Even so, you're sometimes too vulnerable to the sway of others' opinions. Impeccable judgment and taste inform all of your endeavors, and your signature style makes you plenty sought after. Your social life centers around your fascination with ideas, attitudes, opinions and beliefs.

You have a gift for entertaining others, fleshing them out and flirting with them intellectually. You are a gentle but passionate lover for whom sex may serve the purpose of a surrogate fulfillment. A lack of emotional commitment from a lover may frustrate you. This may leave you trying to numb the pain by artificial means.

It's often said that a Libra is smart about everything — except when his or her feelings are hurt. It's worth saying again: A Libra is smart about everything — except when his or her feelings are hurt. Let your indomitable spirit and balancing act prevail.

i'm losing it.
i'm prepared to fail.
i'm prepared to be admitted.
i'm prepared to fall.
i'm prepared to die.
i have no appetite
i have no interest in studying.
i have no interest in going for A maths tuition.
i'm gone.

Baby I see you working hard
Wanna let you know I'm proud
Let ya know that I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you

If I want it when I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better
You challenge me for the better
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter

Let me help you
Take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings
Take off your cufflinks
What you wanna eat boo?
Let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire (I'll supply ya)
Sing you a song
Turn the game on
I'll brush your hair
Help you put your do-rag on
Want a footrub
Want a manicure
Baby I'm yours
I wanna cater to you boy

Let me cater to you
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want
Let me cater to you

Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want,
I wanna cater to you

Baby I'm happy you're home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just want to take the stress away from you
Makin' sure that I'm doing my part
Boy is there something you need me to do
If you want it, say the word (I can try it)
I know whatever I'm not fulfillin'
another woman is willin'
I'm gonna fulfill you my body & spirit
I promise ya
I'll keep myself up
Remain the same chick
you fell in love with
I keep it tight
I keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed
Be rockin' my hottest outfit
When you come home late
Tap me on my shoulder, I'll roll over
Baby I heard you, I'm here to serve you
If it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do is cater to you boy

Let me cater to you
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you

Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want,
I wanna cater to you

I wanna give my craft, my strength
my will to you
That's the least I can do
Let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad
the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you
Let me cater to you
Cuz you're beautiful
I love the way you walk
Fullfill your every desire
Your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart
So pure your love shines through
The darkness we'll get through
So much of me is you
I wanna cater to my man

Let me cater to you
Cause baby this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want,
Let me cater to you

Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
Your all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner,
Your dessert & so much more
Anything you want,
I want to cater to you!

the video is super hot!

I Look At You
You Look At Me
You Can't Help It
You're Feeling Butterflies

Its obvious,
We have Chemistry
I think
I know it cuz it feels so right

Girl
I wanted so long to know
Now Your telling me
You gotta let it go
Dont Tell Me
I have to start all over again

I Never thought that this day would come
This is somthing that
I've wanted in my life
I relize that you're the one
&you're telling me its time to say goodbye

To Put this out of my heart
It ain't gonna change
So it shouldn't be so easy to walk away
You feel it I feel it lets not be tense

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is,
Maybe I'm A Fool.
I Just Know What I'm Feeling,
And It's All Because Of You.
Don't Tell Me,
I Don't Know,
I Want The Truth.
Cuz They Call It,
We Call It,
You Call It,
I Call It Love.

It's so clear for you to see
(dont let anybody tell you what to do)
Why they can't they just let us be happy
(i dont want to find somebody new)
If you know whats real in your heart
Then dont let them tear us apart
(Cuz you feel it I feel it Lets think this through)

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is,
Maybe I'm A Fool.
I Just Know What I'm Feeling,
And It's All Because Of You.
Don't Tell Me,
I Don't Know,
I Want The Truth.
Cuz They Call It,
We Call It,
You Call It,
I Call It Love.

We Have a bond thats unbreakable
And its not time to let it go
And now that we know its real
We are going to let it show
To the whole world
That I'm yours forever
and you're my girl

Baby, I Don't Know What Love Is,
Maybe I'm A Fool.
I Just Know What I'm Feeling,
And It's All Because Of You.
Don't Tell Me,
I Don't Know,
I Want The Truth.
Cuz They Call It,
We Call It,
You Call It,
I Call It Love.

Love,
They Call It Love,
I Call it,
Love

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

It's real late
Bout a quarter to 1
I'm thinking of everything that
We become
And i hate it
I thought we could make it
But I'm ready to dead this
Just wanna forget about it
I saw her pictures
And the letters she sent
You had me thinking
You were out with your friends
I'm so foolish
played me like I'm stupid
Cos i thought it was just You and I (oh)

Now i look back on the time that we spent and
I see it in my mind
Playing over and over again
cos boy right now
You got me breaking down
And i just can't figure out why
But this is what you said

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

Visions in my mind
Of the day that we met
You showed me things
That I'll never forget
Took me swimming
In the ocean
You had my head up in the clouds
Make me feel like I'm floating (yeah)
You think I'm playing
When you know its the truth
Nobody else can do it
Quite like i do
All my kisses
And my loving
But ain't nobody
Better than us

Now i look back on the time that we spent and
I see it in my mind
Playing over and over again
cos boy right now
You got me breaking down
And i just can't figure out why
But this is what you said
We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

I guess its over
Indefinitely
But u and i know
Its not that easy
To let go
Of everything that we had
And start all over again
Just blame yourself cos u blew it
I wont forget how u do it
my Sweet baby
This is where the game ends now somehow
Might not believe u and me
We can figure it out

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

Gonna make you say boy
I wish that u come hold me
When I'm lonely
When i need someone to talk to
You would phone me
just like everything you told me
(when we ride we ride it's till the day we die)
Boy you forgot about the promises
You made me
And now we'll let the memories
Just fade away
But i remember
What you used to say
(when we ride we ride it's till the day we die)

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

We Ride
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die (we die)
Yeah we ride we ride
It's till the day that we die

We Ride

during free period, was bored.

act cute! (i'm always cute though!)

me &feng!

me &th chalet@pasir ris

my 2 favourite cousins, love them!

me &agatha (:

i was feeling cold, so decided to cover th aircon w a blanket! LOL!

mission accomplished!

my cousin from norway! woots!

too BRIGHT! ahh!

morning guys!

i am at home, heh, on mc. sigh. might going to mug ltr. just waiting for my friend to reply me! hur hur! wells, i did up my links part. so guys, if you do not see your blog over there tell me &i'll link you guys up (:

cheers!

crap, i am being emo again. pls bear with it. plus, its random. so no hard feelings! :)

why does shit happen to me?
why do some aj's have to racist?
why do i have to suffer in pain?
why do i have to vomit blood today?
why do they need my blood samples?
don't they alry have it? blood suckers!
why can't i be loved by someone?
am i too lousy? am i eye-sore?
seriously! tell me?
why can't i be like th rest,
in love happily ever after?
why?
it hurts,
it burns.
you don't know how i feel.
you wouldn't even know an inch of it.
so why th hell bother?

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your loves closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like I do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

my apologies again for not keep my blog updated due to exam period.

well, nth much happened over th pass few weeks i can say. just that i have really sick nowadays. sigh. went to th polyclinic today cos i puked out blood twice in th morning. sigh. they referred me to SGH. was freaking out as exams are around th corner &councillor interview was tmr! sigh. took blood test &x rays. they couldn't diagnose me, so have to follow up next friday. oh wells. haha. i just simply love myself. so ego! haha

Monday night I feel so low

Count the hours they go so slow
I know the sound of your voice
Can save my soul
City lights, streets of gold
Look out my window to the world below
Moves so fast and it feel so cold
And I'm all alone

Don't let me die
I'm losing my mind
Baby just give me a sign

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you

I can't sleep and I'm up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I know the touch of your hand
Can save my life

Don't let me down
Come to me now
I got to be with you some how

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you

And now that you're gone
Who am I without you now
I can't go on
I just wanna be with you

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you

so i can't love you (right now)
like i want to (right now)
we i just can't do it
&it's taking everything in me
i want to (right now)
no i want to (right now)
it's this one rule
(&it's keeping me from giving you my love)

i so love th PINK &GREEN ones! woots!

didn't over th past few days, my apologies dear readers! :(

sigh. i am now going for a maths tuition for 6days a week. ahh!

i have a private blog due to unforeseen circumstances. so text or msn me if you wna know what is it. sry!

Wonderful One Luxuriating in Fantastic Gratification and Arousing, Naughty Groping

Jealous One Adeptly Volunteering Arousing Necking

Beguiling Romantic Adonis Needing Delightful Orgasms and Necking

Bloke Offering Sensual Caresses and Orgasms

Paramour Exchanging Rapturous Embraces and Intense, Rousing Affection

guess i am horny after all!

back from sch. got back my results! woots! 2 A1's, 2 B4's &2 C5's... haha. now i am aiming for SJI (IB)... oh wells. today school was great. haha. after school was great for those who knew what happen. haha. so fun! yummy! lol. this is what i found from th internet below. haha. enjoy!

go slow, you just don't know
what i'd do to you
if the situation was different
it's beat and go (go)
we'd be on this floor,
it'd be on for sure,
it's too bad that we can't

you make me wanna do,
something I never do (never do)
wanna go there with you (with you)
all the way there (there),
touch me there (there),
take me there with you
(there with you)
boy i'm scared of you
nothing compares to you
i'm not prepared to do it

so i can love you (right now)
like i want to (right now)
we just can't do it
&it's taking everything in me
i want to (right now)
no i want to (right now)
it's this one rule
(&it's keeping me from giving you my love)

i must admit
baby ooh your kiss
it's taking my mind
to places that nobody's never seen before
makin' me wantin' more
i know you hopin' that i
filled a little, give a little more (yeah)

you make me wanna do,
something I never do (never do)
wanna go there with you (with you)
all the way there (there),
touch me there (there),
take me there with you
(there with you)
boy i'm scared of you
nothing compares to you
i'm not prepared to do it

so i can love you (right now)
like i want to (right now)
we just can't do it
&it's taking everything in me
i want to (right now)
no i want to (right now)
it's this one rule
(&it's keeping me from giving you my love)

wanna go all the way
we got a plane to save
hey, Hey
(so you just cant have my love)

so i can love you (right now)
like i want to (right now)
we just can't do it
&it's taking everything in me
i want to (right now)
no i want to (right now)
it's this one rule
(&it's keeping me from giving you my love)

sigh. i feel like i am a slut. somehow i just feel that way. msn's down on my comp, kinda irritating, so now depending on those web based kind to long on. sigh. just logged on, 21 people online. how crappy is that anyway?

sigh, i feel so bad. yesterday while talking to viccintta on th phone i felt asleep. haha. i only did that to anita. but now its out of control. haha. dom called when i was sleeping. DAMN! sigh. woke up damn early luh. tsk. got ready &stuff. ben's mum wanted to bring me out for some drama performance thing today night. but i was too tired &i need my sleep so i decided to pass it.

school ended. went to queensway with clique to eat katong laksa. haha. it was good as it was a rare time where most of them could make it. SEXY8, i love you guys! haha. th library was disaterous, had no mood to study too. so decided to borrow books instead, borrowed; lust, uglies &pretties. haha. it's really nice to read luh.

dom, you must start reading soon!

" i'm a bitch &a slut. i think i am gonna end a relationship between this guy i like &his boyfriend. he is in love with me, but not so deeply as i for him. i met him once &i am going gaga over him. it's like wth. tmr we are meeting up for lunch. hope that everything goes well between us ): just don't like to see him sad. plus i do not want to be hated by his boyfriend. sigh. i can't just simply ignore th fact that i love him. sigh. "

I'm so secure,
You're here with me
You stay the same,
Your love remains here in my heart

So close I believe,
You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong,
You'll never let me go
So close I believe,
You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong,
You'll never let me go

You gave your life
In Your endless love
You set me free
And showed the way
Now I am found

So close I believe,
You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong,
You'll never let me go
So close I believe,
You're holding me now
In Your Hands I belong,
You'll never let me go

All along,
You were beside me
Even when I could'nt tell
Through the years,
You showed me more of You,
more of You

this song is so emo. it has two meanings behind it.

i can't sleep nor eat w/o thinking of you.

btw, when i said i am over you means i am over you. i have move on. so th msg above doesn't refer to you :(

sigh. been really a 'great' day for me. dragged myself to tiong to meet joan! haha, we were going to st bern's funfair. well, th turn out there was huge. haha. saw chris, jon, marcus &gabe. haha. met up with sherman. went to great world with him twice. cos i wanted to kill time &so was he. catched up &stuff, talked about how we missed th good old days where we meet up outside my school &go down to portsdown road for lunch (: haha

sherman left &gave me 2tickets for our lady star of the sea funfair &since later i am meeting dominic whose church is also our lady star of the sea. so i headed down there. it took me almost an hour to get there. well i kinda wasted my time there. no food stalls. nothing. games stall was still open but had no interest in playing. so got myself a cup of 'ice' milo, apparently it was hot. ugh. waited for dom in th canteen. was dazing away.

he came. we left to town. we talked on th bus about things. &what he said is true. we must give &take. but sadly, i don't feel that way. sigh went to esplanade. talked about more stuff on AJ's. went to citylink, raffles, citylink, suntec, citylink &raffles. talked alot. well, i can't say much here. but i feel what i am doing now is totally wrong. sigh. went home &crap. i haven't do my history, physics &maths homework! crap!

The Multidimensional Scale of Sexuality

According to my answers, it is likely that I identify as
Homosexual.

Complete set of results

Homosexual: 5
Homosexual with some heterosexuality: 3
Sequential bisexual: 3
Concurrent bisexual: 2
Past homosexual, currently heterosexual: 2
Heterosexual with some homosexuality: 1
Past heterosexual, currently homosexual: 1
Asexual: 0
Heterosexual: 0

Take the quiz

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u been to my blog and u didnt tag
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how can?
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haha
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GARRY! YOU NEVER TAG MY BLOG YOU BIG BULLY! UGH!

i so do love this song!

why does my heart feel so bad,
why does my soul feel so sad.
what am i doing to myself.
why can't i see things from a different perspective?
why am i not able to change things?
am i just too stubborn?
am i just too self-centered?
why can't i long for happiness?
why am i not able to change for th better?
do i seek attention from you?
why am i like this?
can somebody help me?
sigh.

{going w sherman to st. ig's prayer rally. beep me if you are going (:}

sigh, slept from 5 - 11p.m. just now. &now my neck hurts! fuck! ugh. i hope that my neck doesn't get stiff. i'll scream my lungs out.

hey guys, it been 2days since i never blog, sorry yeah?

1st is thing that i didnt go for studyskills on wednesday, sick.
next was i went for th chalet instaed (:

wednesday,
woke up around 5.30 plus. couldn't get up as arm was in pain. so decided not to go to study skills as th pain was on my right arm. then decided to sleep for 3more hours. got up packed my bag for th chalet. took bus to commonwealth. then took train down to pasir ris. on th train i saw my primary school classmate. well, i don't think she remembers me. oh wells, th journey there was loooooonnnng. stood till i reached bedok, managed to get a sit at th corner. haha.

went to th interchange to wait for th freaking bus. damn bloody long man. bus 403 took almost 15mins to arrive. sigh, i am sucha bitch! haha, reached th chalet. it was so big. haha. at my breakfast. played xbox with my cousins. BURNOUT rocks man! haha. had lunch. then went to bedok &frankel ave to get things for BBQ. haha, we bought plenty of things.

went back, prepared for th BBQ. started th fire &everybody came (: i was th satay man for th night (: haha, almost burned my hand. haha. then we played more of burnout! slept around 3 in th morning that day.

thursday,
had v little sleep. woke up at 7.30. no was awake, went back to bed. woke up at nine. had breakfast (: eggs &ham. went to pasir ris park to cycle. saw feng, nic &th soccer guys there. went back. showered. played burnout. had lunch. went to park again. shit happened. was kinda depressing. ugh. :( went back. showered AGAIN. sigh. had dinner. msged tino. went for a ride on uncle roy's lorry. woots! went back. too tired. slept.

i like the confidence you have when you walk
your attentive look when you speak
your gentle expression and your innocent smile
i believe i can never find a better person than you
how is your ideal lover in your heart?
will i be qualified?

i really wanna know what kind of girls
can get your perfect marks
my dear, please let me play
a more important role in your life
i wanna ask, my dear,
when you prepare to enhance the relationship
from friends to couple,
can you please tell me your benchmark,
so that i won't wait in vain
everything was like a dream

well, yesterday online was kinda sad &shitty, don't wanna talk about it. sigh, do not want to know everything. i am like running away from life-problems. i can't seem to face it somehow &it sucks. well, after today's session in sch, i decided to change for th good.

woke up pretty early today. got changed, plus it was raining, a nice time to sleep. sigh, had to bus down to school. was quite 'early' you can say. i wasn't late after all. got back my darling IPOD! i so freaking miss you! danny started th session. well, its funny &stuff. did alot of memorising &stuff. then wayne took over for awhile had some games, th forfeit was LAME! -.-'' somehow some of th people i am siting with seem to enjoy it at all. haha, i escaped to th toilet while they were doing it. HAHA!

had lunch at dover w bel &en. map &qilin didn't come today ): ugh. came back for amin's session. somehow i so LOVE his session, makes me in th mood to concentrate (: showed us a video on some war film. i teared for th people inside as th film was quite gory &sad.

then amin told us about his grandfather. &then i teared again. he told us another senario. i cried when i heard it. tear just kept flowing out. sigh. so EMO! ):

had dinner. really miss him alot. well, he phone is down &i miss chatting with him online too. sigh, sadness man! went back. had to plan out our future &stuff. oh wells, first to ngee ann to army then to NUS! woots!

i'm getting older as th days pass by, a pink card will be issued soon. &th year after that i'll be legal to watch shows & 2years after that i'll be legal to smoke, drink &club. & 3years after that i'll be an adult. things are just simply going too fast. well, i'm not kidding. i am confused about my feelings too. do we just simply do things just to satisfy our desires? is it th case? if so? looks like you still haven't gotten over him yet. why bother getting into a relationship then. a relationship is something that i really long for. where i feel safe to be with, someone to talk to when i am down or whatever th situation is. do i long for things that i do not need at th moment?

i am just all confused. simply confused. love, life &friends.

today went for study skills. well, i happened to be late as mr. ho told me th thing starts at 8.30 when it actually starts at 8. haha, met, amy at th door, she was late too. we both went in &together. well, th 1st instructor was really funny! haha, he &his crappy jokes made me laugh till my eyes teared. amy couldn't stop laughing too. had lunch, went dover to eat. ate tom yam noodle. so spicy &hot! rahh!

went bk, had another instructor. no words to say. &then our last instructor for th day really got us back into th mood. he joked ALOT! we laugh. had dinner. came back, watched th ending part for 'rocky'. it was really kinda emo, don't why. held my tears back. he gave a summary about 'rocky' &how th movie actually played a part in our lives. it was really meaning. really took for granted for i had actually been doing all this while ):

joavan brandon bosco pereira, please stop being such an emo kid ok? don't think of negative things, focus on th positive. things will be fine! lovelove!

amy

i just simply love her to bits!

hey guys.

i'm like supoose to get ready for school but instead i'm blogging! haha. but anyway, i don't know why when everytime when i hear th unfaithful song, i'll tend to tear. sigh. sadness ):

hey all!

i'm back from novena today! well, its really been awhile since i went for smth that is really holy other then mass! haha, well went there around 4. supposed to be there at 3. haha, all thanks to me! haha, when we got there, none of my family relations were there. so thanks to me for delaying th timing (: then my godparents came with my 2lovely cousins &another 'lovely' cousin. whahaha. talk to irenaeus sis, about school &stuff. sigh. she going university when she's done with her IB. sigh. unlike me have 2yrs more to get my O's certificate, 2/3yrs to complete A's / dip / IB(if i am lucky) then crapped.

then all my th relations came. procession &th rosary started. saw someone in th altarboys that reminded me of someone. sigh. haha. mass started &stuff. blah blah blah. mass ended. th songs were nice. will type out th lyrics by th end of th week (:

as usual, we would go out to eat as a family, so happened that we went to apollo banana leaf, i guess its an all time fav for them. haha! decided to try smth new, so i order dung(smth like tat) mutton briyani. well, it came in a pot. delicious man! haha! drank sweet lassi (an all time fav of mine) then bussed back home. man! i so miss things/people that i want to be with now!

gosh! everything in th show is spicing up. stephanie forrester has found out that she owed forrester creation all along. now he's planning to kick out th evil, slut &bitchy brooke &that S.O.B husband of hers eric forrester.... well its interesting as you see them agruing to get thier way thru to hold on to th company. well stephanie has now ask thorne to lead th compnay. woots! haha. oh, i just so hope that th ending goes well...

You've been waiting so long, I'm here to answer your calls
I know that I shouldn't have had you waiting at all
I've been so busy, but I've been thinking 'bout what I wanna do wit you
I know them other guys, they've been talking 'bout the way I do what I do
They heard I was good, they wanna see if it's true
They know you're the one I wanna give it to
I can see you want me too
Now it's me and you

It's me and you now
I've been waiting
Think I'm gonna make that move now
Baby Tell me if you like it
It's me and you now
I've been waiting
Think I'm gonna make that move now
Baby Tell me if you like it

to tino: i like th way you smile, it just brightens up my day (:

I've never been the one to raise my hand,
That was not me and now that's who I am

Because of you I am standing tall,
My heart is full of endless gratitude,
You were the one, the one to guide me through,
Now I can see and I believe it's only just beginning

This what we dream about
but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

I guess I've learned, to question is to grow
That you still have faith, is all I need to know
I've learned to love, myself in spite of me
And I've learned to walk, the road that I believe

This what we dream about
but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Everybody needs to rise up
Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved

This what we dream about
but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

This what we dream about
but the only question with me now
Is do I make you proud
Stronger than I've ever been now
Never been afraid of standing out
But do I make you proud

Do I make you proud? Do I make you proud?