we try and follow th trend... th latest clothing line, latest jeans or shoes... well, i am too part of th trend. have you ever wondered and tried to be unique? try to be outstanding, different from others?
NO, why? cause you want to be part of th trend, it is th trend that pulls you in... makes you think that what you are wearing makes you look cool, or th way you are behaving attracts attention... th word 'trend' is deadly...
why do people go vivocity for? do they really go there to shop? do they really go there to watch a movie?
if they either wanna go there to shop or watch a movie... they can do it in a neighbourhood shopping complex or in orchard...
why vivocity?th trend.
gosh, i am really sick and tired of going there, but i don't really understand why am i letting myself get involve in th trend... i don't really find it cool, not at all... sigh. plus, to make it even worst... th bloody mall isn't even completed yet, so why bother going into a shopping that's incomplete, with construction work going on. dust, smoke &dirt everywhere... gee, i really don't know... mmm, i'm gonna stop going to vivocity for a month... at least a month, 30 DAYS... no vivocity... if it ever makes me feel better... i'll treat it as punishment?
ha! we'll see how...
for those who are regular shoppers at vivocity, please do not be offended on my post... it is just based on my reflection... no hard feelings yea?
thanks!
cravings!
i just love my Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie™
songs &their meanings behind it...
I'm here when will you make your move? I see you, I am me, I want you, why don't you? Come to me, I can be, what you need, uh baby I'm standing, been waiting, I'm yearning, I'm burning Come to know me, come and get to know me Come to show me, that you wanna know me
-which means i am desperate
Stone cold sober, 'bout to get knocked out Are you ready for me? Wanna party hard, wanna get real loud Tonight I'm feeling sexy! A girl over there damn near passed out I know your watching me be And that's what happens when you're in the crowd
I can't control what I feel Somethin' 'bout to make me get it up Somethin's got me ready Somethin's 'bout to get me baby Don't have to tell me to get fired up If I don't move now it might erupt Get fired up Fired up
i can't bloody hell enter JC with that kind of grade
Mr. Ho says; Joavan is a sensible, helpful and well-behaved pupil who always works to the best of his ability. He is also helpful can co-operative in class. He displays enthusiasm and a positive work attitude towards his studies. He should continue to persevere to attain higher goals.
disappointment
what i have done over th past years is nothing... wasted my time in class... sigh...
emo? baby, i hope so not...
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
sigh, don't really know whats wrong with me now.
have i lost everything thing that i got? this isn't me for sure i know... but what i am feeling now is real and it hurts.
boy, i don't what i got myself into... really, i can't seem to relax or 'chill' somehow...
my life based on lies? or facts? do i reveal myself to you people? do i say things proudly about my life infront of you guys or just hide to protect my dignity and pride?
what am i living for? for you? for myself? for my parents? for my teachers? i really don't know...
so show me a sign dear shadow... please...
someone save me!
anything but ordinary please...
Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out I laughcry myself to sleep It's my lullaby Sometimes I drive so fast Just to feel the danger I wanna scream It makes me feel alive
Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breath? Somebody rip my heart out And leave me here to bleed Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life I'd rather be anythingbut ordinary please
you hurt me badly...
LIES! LIES!
over th phone conversation, you said nth was going on...
but on your blog... it was like... WTF!
lies, i can't live with it.
BLOODYJERK!
a day out with my friends...
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
us inside vivo's theatre 4 (:
had thanksgiving service yesterday... was indeed thankful for everything i would say... haha, got back my class photo's too.. will upload them later... haha, i look so HOT... yeah HOT! mmm... then we walked to ivan's place... me &glenys... got changed... meet vic, brendan, sze, daryl caspar, swenn, fengyuan...
bussed to vivo on 166... saw bel yeo, soph &dorcas... mmm. went to vivo GV. ordered th tickets... we sat like 3 rows from th front... haha... well we had like 2 hours to kill cos we were there around 1 plus. th movie was like 3.40... haha. so me, vic &glenys decided to walk around instead... cam-whored in broad day light... my eyes was so hurting la... grr!
then we decided to chill out at GV's 2nd floor. boy, it was so empty... haha. we practically laze there till everyone came back...
th movie so ROCKED! i would say. th plot was rather interesting... haha, i would love to own th machine that they used in th movie...
oh yeah! i collected my I/C alry... haha. mmm... went home...
you apparently told me things which really hurt me &it spoilt my day... sigh...
Set in late 19th century London, the film tells of rival magicians Robert Angier (Hugh Jackman) and Alfred Borden (Christian Bale). Alfred Borden is on trial for the murder of his rival, Robert Angier. In flashback, during a trick, Angier falls into a water tank under the stage and Borden watches him drown. Borden is convicted and incarcerated. During his time, he receives Angier's personal diary.
As he reads the diary, we see its story in flashback. Borden and Angier start off as assistants for the same magician, under Cutter's lead. During one trick, the "Water Escape," Angier's wife is bound and lowered into a water tank and locked in. The trick is that she can slip her wrist out of the knots and, through a hand-size trap hole at the top, reach out and undo the trick lock to escape. A conversation takes place about the fact that the knot used could give way as she's being lowered into the tank, which would cause her to fall and possibly injure herself severely. Borden suggests a different knot, and Angier's wife agrees, but the others say it's too risky. During one performance, Borden tries using the different knot. Unfortunately, Angier's wife cannot free her hands, and she drowns in front of everyone before the tank can be smashed open. Both Angier and Borden proceed to pursue their own careers as magicians; Borden going on to hire a shady character, of few words, known as Fallon. During his upstart career, Borden meets a young lady known as Sarah and proceeds to court her. They eventually marry and have a daughter. Ironically, As a later reffered clue, Sarah claims to be able to know when Borden loves her and when he does not. She claims that some days he does and some days he is lying and he doesn't.
At one magic performance, Borden decides to close with the "Bullet Catch" trick. Unfortunately, the volunteer pulled up on stage to fire the gun turns out to be a disguised Angier, who places a round into the gun and asks Borden which knot he put on his wife's wrists, and why he repeatedly and oddly denies to remember which knot he had used. Angier then shoots Borden's ring and pinky fingers off. Some time following this event, Cutter approaches Angier proposing to get back into the business. The two hire a beautiful assistant named Olivia (Scarlett Johansson) to help distract the audience.
As a closing act, Cutter and Angier decide to make a dove disappear into thin air using a mechanical apparatus attached to Angier's back. Borden, in disguise, becomes a volunteer in the trick and trips the trick cage before the Turn, killing the dove and trapping another volunteer's fingers in the cage, injuring her. Angier's reputation is tarnished. Both magicians continue to make modest performances until Borden astonishes crowds with a trick known as "The Transported Man." In the trick, Borden bounces a ball across the stage, disappears into a box, instantly reappears within another box across the stage, steps out, and catches the bouncing ball.
Angier and Olivia are amazed and Cutter himself has no explanation for it except that Borden must be using a double. However, Angier and Olivia are not convinced of this because the man who walks out looks identical, talks identically, and even has his two fingers missing. Angier and Cutter develop their own version of the trick, termed the "The New Transported Man." In this trick, Angier tosses his hat across the stage, disappears behind a door and seemingly reappears across the stage to catch the hat. With this trick however, Angier disappears under the stage while a similar-looking actor shoots up on the other side of the stage at the same time. Thus, the actor enjoys the applause while Angier is forced to listen from backstage.
Angier, clearly unhappy with the trick tries to figure out Borden's version, because he wants to be on stage to receive the audience's applause himself. Because of pride and ambition he sends Olivia to Borden to steal his secrets. Unfortunately, Olivia falls in love with Borden and decides to double-cross Angier. Fame and publicity follow both actors until one night, Borden thwarts Angier's trick (by binding up the double) and advertises for his Transported Man trick during Angier's show. Angier and Cutter, furious that Borden has ruined their show, captures Fallon and seals him in a coffin. Angier ransoms Fallon off for the key to Borden's trick. Borden simply supplies Angier with one word, "TESLA," claiming that that is not only the key to the cipher of Borden's notebook (which Olivia had brought to Angier) but also the key to the trick. Angier decides to travel to Colorado Springs to meet with Nikola Tesla (David Bowie) and learn the secret.
Angier spends quite a while in America while Tesla constructs a machine that resembles a Magnifying Transmitter. Each test fails as they attempt to accomplish some unknown feat with a top hat. After placing a cat in the apparatus and again watching the machine fail, Angier storms outside only to find a clone of the cat playing with its original. Astonishingly, surrounding the cats are dozens of top hats, each identical to the hat used in the experiments. Therefore, the machine Tesla has produced replicates any object placed under the electrical arc and transports it to a distant location.
With his new "trick" prepared, Angier returns to London to produce one final set of shows. He employs the help of Cutter again to produce the stage props but insists that Cutter remain front stage for these shows. Angier only uses blind stage hands to help him behind the stage. Angier's show opens to critical and commercial success and Fallon and Borden are absolutely perplexed at how it is accomplished. In the new trick, Angier disappears under huge arcs of electricity and suddenly reappears in the balcony. He travels fifty meters in only a second.
Borden thinks that a trap door is used, but the balcony reappearance baffles him since the balcony is such a great distance from the stage. One night, Fallon follows Angier and his blind stagehands after a show and discovers that every night they transport a large, covered water tank across town and discard it underground. Borden, upon hearing of this news, decides to wash his hands of the matter and insists that Fallon simply leave Angier alone.
However, we then see that Borden has decided to watch the trick one more time (in disguise). Borden sneaks backstage. Under the stage sits a water tank, and when the trap door opens, Angier falls in. The trick lock does not open and Angier drowns to his death. We now see that Borden in fact tries to smash apart the water tank and save Angier, and that he's unable to do so quickly enough. Borden is tried and convicted for the death of Angier, and sentenced to death by hanging, which brings the story to the beginning scenes.
In prison, Borden receives word that his daughter will become a ward of the state unless he decides to give up the secret of his "transported man" trick to a certain Lord. He obliges but decides that he will not reveal all until he can see his daughter for the last time. He reaches the end of Angier's diary, where Angier writes that he hopes Borden enjoys his time in prison where he should be rotting for his wife's death.
When the Lord Caldlow comes to greet Borden in prison with his daughter, it is revealed that he is actually Angier - who should be dead. Borden offers to reveal his secret to Angier, and gives Angier the papers that he alleges will explain it, but Angier doesn't care and tears up the sheets without reading them. Borden is subsequently hanged. Angier, pleased that everything has gone to plan, decides to bury all secrets underground. He brings Tesla's apparatus down to where the water chambers are and is ambushed by Borden. Borden proceeds to shoot Angier and reveals that he and Fallon are one and the same.
They are actually twins who have been living as one another all their lives, so well that one loved Olivia and one loved Sarah, but neither lady knew they were twins and played one another. Therefore, for the "Original Transported Man" trick, Borden/Fallon disappered behind a door and the other brother reappeared at the otherside of the stage. They were so committed to the lie that Fallon/Borden chiselled off his fingers to replicate the other brother. Angier, now dying, reveals that for the "Real Transported Man" trick, each time Angier falls down the trap door, he plunges into the water tank and proceeds to drown. The replicated Angier lives on and the drowned corpses are stored underground. Angier dies from the bullet wound and Borden lives on. After Borden leaves, the shot closes in on one of the tanks with another Angier clone, imitating death smiling inwardly inside.
i feel you creepin'...
Sunday, October 22, 2006
hello there!
been like days since i last blog. well, life for me now has been stable i would say... things are slowly progressing. haha, mmm... tomorrow's thanksgiving service... well. i am surely gonna be thankful for th friends i had this year, th musical people, caleb mr. firhad, mr. pang, mrs. daphne lim, ms elaine lim &everyone who played a part in my life during this year in school. guys... thanks alot. esp. felicia, joy &viccintta. you guys rock! haha...
well, today is just like any ordinary sunday where i just simply laze around... hah... mmm call me if you wanna go out... but i aint got no cash. so i'll be penniless. (: haha.
Wanna jump up in my Lamborghini Gallardo?
I feel you creepin', I can see you from my shadow. Wanna jump up in my Lamborghini Gallardo. Maybe go to my place and just kick it, like Tae-bo. And possibly bend you over.
toh nachle nachle all night ...
Friday, October 20, 2006
moments of love, words of love these are dreamy days and nights songs of the heart echo throughout and make beautiful music all the lovers are intoxicated so let’s dance all night
where’s the party tonight somewhere down the road on the dance floor oh sapno ke din hain, sapno ki raatein where’s the party tonight oh sajna, oh sajna tere bina main nahin
The one who was my destination, the one who made me crazy is now mine the flower that intoxicated me with it’s perfume has blossomed in my arms love’s paths are fragrant and all eyes are intoxicated the world of dreams opens it’s arms so let’s dance all night
The one who’s my story (who’s part of my life), who I’m crazy about is crazy about me too The queen of my heart also remembers my story (language of my heart) the story is now complete the heart has found it’s aim (has connected) life is ecstatic so let’s dance tonight
kabhi alvida naa kehna
Dev Saran (Shahrukh Khan), a formerly successful, now injured footballer, is unhappily married to Rhea (Preity Zinta), who has a high-flying job with a fashion mag. They have a son named Arjun. Maya (Rani Mukerji) is about to unhappily marry her childhood friend Rishi Talwar (Abhishek Bachchan). Samarjit a.k.a "Sexy Sam" (Amitabh Bachchan) plays Rishi's dad, and Kamaljit (Kiron Kher) plays the peppy mom to Dev.
Dev happens to meet Maya before her wedding and despite being strangers, they connect instantly. It could be that the two are unhappy with their partners, it could be that Dev was only too happy to talk of his uncomfortable marriage or it could be that Maya just could not love Rishi and so, found Dev attractive. Whatever the case, the connection between the two remains a glowing spark that re-ignites when they meet four years later.
During those four years, Maya has married Rishi and Dev has met with an accident that leaves him crippled and ends his football career. So when Maya meets Dev the next time, he is bitter - his failed career and failing marriage are festering wounds to which his wife Rhea's professional success is salt. In the Talwar home, things are no better - Maya still does not feel any love for Rishi and feels guilty for her inability to have children.
Dev and Maya realise that their situations are similar and decide to help each other repair their breaking marriages. Things don't work quite as expected however, and they become more and more drawn to each other. At the same time, Rishi and Rhea are working to keep their marriages afloat and are willing to see hope in even the smallest, most innocuous signs from their partners. However, their efforts are insignificant in the face of Maya and Dev's intense unhappiness in their marriages and their growing love for each other.
Dev and Maya give in to a dreamy, coffee-drenched romance. But after an incident at the ballet that makes Dev intensely jealous, they realize they now feel like they are cheating on each other with their own spouses. This realization brings them to a dramatic point of no return. Shortly afterward, they are caught in an embrace outside the train station by Sam and Kamaljeet.
Sam, having lived the good life for a long, long time ultimately has to bear the punishment of all his excesses - he has a fatal heart attack and as he lies on his death bed, he gives Maya some unconventional advice: he tells her to leave his son Rishi since neither of them are happy in their marriage.
Things come to a head and Dev and Maya decide to leave each other and return to their partners. But this re-union will not be without honesty, so they come clean and confess their extra-marital affair. Rishi and Rhea decide that enough is enough and end their marriages - this doesn't mean that Maya and Dev come together however. They only speak to each other on the phone, and lie to each other, saying that all is well in their marriages.
Three years later, Rishi goes to meet Maya and invites her to his wedding. There Rhea sees Maya for the first time in three years and realises that she and Rishi weren't together as she thought. The news that Dev is still alone, combined with some prodding from Rishi and Rhea convinces Maya to run after Dev. Dev is about to catch a train to Canada when he sees Maya. He hides from her because he has told Maya earlier than he was happy with Rhea and he thinks that she is happily married to Rishi. However, Maya finds him in his seat a few seconds before his train leaves the station. He uses the emergency brakes to get out to meet her. Dev finds out that Maya has been living alone all of that time too and feels very bad.
Then they finally get together.
{to find out what happened in th end... watch th movie (: }
{ where is the party tonight - kabhi alvida naa kehna }
enjoy!
4NA'07 (:
Thursday, October 19, 2006
mmm... didnt go school today. wasn't feeling well, not sure about tmr.
YEAH! heard from my babe that i got 3rd in class... 62% (: rachel got 2nd, casper as usual 1st... mmm... heard alot of people is either gonna retain or drop... sigh &most of them are my friends in express... sigh... julien, enen &maple... guys dont worry... just hope for th best yeah? mmm... cheer up!
i love my results for now.. but gonna keep improving on it (:
When we're together, there's no one in the world...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
babe, i'll buy for you sentosa when i am rich! i promise! heex! i got tummy alry! FATS FATS! *poke* i just love you to bits, mapletansufen!
a big turn...
my results?
well... its disastrous... well, th papers i got today... lets say it went well? hah! i passed chinese! finally... compo 31/50, letter writing 14/20, oral 20/40 (disappointed), listening 14/20 &paper2 25/60. hah! overall i passed it la, 54/100 a C6 (:
mmm. well to sum it all. i am not gonna retain! haha
sigh... life is indeed like a rollercoaster... zoom! hah.
takecare guys (: love!
You shake that ass &I just die
Let's go to a rave, And behave like we're trippin' Simply 'cause we're so in love.
Funny hats, shiny pants- All we need for some romance, Go get dolled-up And I'll pick you up.
There's no line for you and me 'Cause tonight we're V.I.P. (I know somebody at the door).
I see that twinkle in your eye, You shake that ass and I just die, Let's check our coats and move out to the floor.
When I'm dancing with you Tomorrow doesn't matter. Turn that music up 'Till the windows start to shatter 'Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet. And I can't even dance.
Just look at me, Silly Me, I'm as happy as can be- I got a girl who thinks I rock. And tomorrow there's no school, So lets go drink some more Red Bull, And not get home 'till about 6:00.
When I'm dancing with you Tomorrow doesn't matter. Turn that music up 'Till the windows start to shatter 'Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet. And I can't even dance.
Everybody here is staring At the outfit that you're wearing- (I) Love it when they check you out. Cover's only twenty bucks, And even if the dj sucks It's time to turn this mutha out!
When we're together When we're together There's no tomorrow, There's no tomorrow When we're together There's no one in the world but you and me oh you and me oh You and me
oh shit!
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
guess what?
its back to th old days where my phone gets taken away from me...
sigh...
this time th bill came up to $158.04 to be exact...
2000+ sms...
ugh... usually my bill will be around like $30 - 50 plus...
i know th reason behind th sudden increase... those who are close to me will also know why. fuck!
so no phone till january i guess?
SADNESS!
contact me via housephone...
Always look on the bright side of life...
Some things in life are bad, They can really make you mad, Other things just make you swear and curse, When you're chewing life's gristle, Don't grumble, Give a whistle &this'll help things turn out for the best. &...
Always look on the bright side of life. Always look on the bright side of life.
haha! what i am feeling now is really sucky... somehow stumbled across this particular song which i remember in certain television advertisement... haha... well got back my combined science &humanities results and not forgetting english... sigh...
been recently going out to town and coming back home lately...
sometimes i just simply think that i am wasting myself, am i a man-whore/cheap slut?
gosh, really don't know. yesterday headed down to vivocity with viccintta...
as we sat down near the water... i wonder about my past, th mistakes that i did. it was a really foolish of me to do those stuff i admit it...
it nice to have someone to accompany when you are sad and lonely but too much people crowding around just really make you go suicidal...
viccintta wasn't really much of a help yesterday as she was in th same state as me... so 2 sad lonely bums outside vivocity facing sentosa with heartaches deep down in our soul... sigh...
life is really like a roller coaster... there high moments in time and there will always be those low moments in life where you hit ground zero.
&once you hit ground zero, you'll definitely need th people around you to get you back on your feet. but you can also stand up on your own feet by yourself if you believe you can... that is already amazing.
but for me, i am not sure myself?
Fashionista!
“Sean John, Calvin Klein Donna Karan's fashion line Valentino, YSL Ferragamo and Chanel Holsten, Gucci, Figla, Rucci Don't forget my Pucci Fendi and Armani God, I miss Gianni Kenneth Cole, Michael Korrs Mr. Ford I can't afford D&G and BCBG Looking good is never easy Alexander Perkovich Naomi Campbell such a bitch I wanna be Delgada To fit into my Prada Oscar de la Renta Louis Vuitton Imitation of Christ, beauty has a price”
what hurts th most....
Sunday, October 15, 2006
hello guys,
i have not been being myself over the past few days pretty well, maybe it could be the post-exams stress or maybe being hurt by people around me...
i don't really know what's wrong with CERTAIN singaporeans these days. sigh... i went for an interview which practically says "students are welcome"... but so happened that when me &vic when to the location... &she asked th salesgirl, "are you hiring students?", the salesgirl replied, "yes we are, how old are you?". vic told her that we are 15, &the salesgirl went, "oh sorry, we are hiring people 20 years old and above...". i swear, you should have seen my face... i was fucking pissed man! you know, they could have said, "we are looking who people to work for us, preferably 20 years old and above" grrr!
then we headed down to onmi-theatre as her friend said that there might be a vaccancy there... sigh, but it happens that they were full house... sigh. so jobless for now... sigh.
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house That don’t bother me I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while Even though going on with you gone still upsets me There are days every now and again I pretend I’m oknt> But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go But I’m doin’ It It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m aloner Still Harder Getting up, getting dressed,livin’ with this regret But I know if I could do it over I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart That I left unspoken
What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do
What hurts the most Was being so close And having so much to say And watching you walk away And never knowing What could have been And not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do
Not seeing that loving you Is what I was tryin’ to do
round round
Saturday, October 14, 2006
We go round, round, round, round
Everywhere that I go, people know me by the way I flow I keep it moving in the right direction and everyday you know that's how I'm living It's alright
Round round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown boogie down, knock it around (it's alright) Round round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown boogie down, knock it around (it's alright)
Round round we go where we looking for hos We line up and knock 'em down it's like tic tac toe We on a roll spitting flows every day of the week We might not got alotta dough but we get paid by the freak We move it east different cities, different girls, different titties and we get 'em by the dozens call 'em groupie committees We getting busy like bone all up in college dorms If you ain't takin' us home then you can leave us alone
Everywhere that I go, people know me by the way I flow I keep it moving in the right direction and everyday you know that's how I'm living It's alright
Round round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown boogie down, knock it around (it's alright) Round round, get around, knock it around
round, round, round, round
Two kids at the Usher show digging for change Saving up to buy an aeroplane to take us away My crew has been around the block so all the girls know my game Plus my milk money is s-s-s-sour way past the date So if you know where we can grow a pound of ?grode? to roll Rock a show in Tokyo and kick a foot on my O Put the O wit Oreo we O the power of soul Round and round we go but where we stop nobody knows
It's alright Round, round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown, boogie down, knock it around (it's alright) Round, round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown, boogie down, knock it around
Yo, come and get it come and check it see what we got We about to set it bout the record making you hop Out ya shoes out ya socks getting hot off the pot So stay in tune please don't move and keep the station on lock Cause we fly around the room so hold it down while we gone Haven't been home in a minute and my head's getting low I'll be back but gone tomorrow with the wind in the blows I'm going to rock the microphone 'til I'm a hundred years old
Everywhere that I go, people know me by the way I flow I keep it moving in the right direction and everyday you know that's how I'm living It's alright
Round round, get around, knock it around (it's alright) Downtown boogie down, knock it around (it's alright) Round round, get around, knock it around Downtown boogie down, knock it around
sigh... i so love my kor-in-law's blog song... my immortal... sigh...
i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along
went to town today... ahh! fuck.. basically my day is just so fucked up... jason is not your fault. so need not worry, its about what happened after that. sigh
oh yeah... feels so good!
Friday, October 13, 2006
hello!
sorry about my yesterday's post.. . was really having a fucked up day... kenna rejected by esprit ): haha... so still job searching... haha... went to meet anita today! i miss miss her so so much! haha.. got down at raffles... walked to peni... almost my life la.. geez!
went peni... walk walk... then went to th padang to relax. hee hee (: ate chips ahoy! &drank caramel coffee... then nth much... chat with my babe... missed her HELL LOADS! haha... sigh.. i am too lazy to blog. haha
ciao!
Thursday, October 12, 2006
morons,plsFUCK off and GETaLIFE?
what a beautiful day...
sigh...
one word,
FUCK!
copied this from garry's blog...
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
1) Full name: joavan brandon wolfgang bosco pereira 2) Name spell backward: arierep ocsob gnagflow nodnarb navaoj 3) Were you named after anyone: Saints; St. Joavan & St. Wolfgang 4) Meaning of name: haha, check it up yourself! :P 5) Nickname: mojojo, jo, slut. 6) Screen Name: zhuowan 7) D.O.B: 24/09/1991 8) Place of Birth: Singapore 9) Nationality: Singaporean 10) Current Location: Queenstown, Singapore
11) Star Sign: Libra 12) Religion: Roman Catholic 13) Height: 172cm 14) Weight: 49kg 15) Shoe Size: 8/9? 16) Hair Color: Black 17) Eye Color: Dark Brown 18) Who do you look like: mmm, not sure? 19) Inner or Outer: ?? 20) Left or Right: Right
21) Gay, Lesbian, Straight, Bi or others: hello, i am bisexual (: 22) Best Friend: Viccintta, Joy, Felicia &Anita 23) Best Friend you trust most: same as Q22 24) Fav Pals: SEXY8, th people from 3g &3h (: 25) Best Friend of the opp sex: same as Q22 26) Best Buddies: Sze An, Liang Fu, Dominic &Andrew 27) Boyfriend or Girlfriend: Both, but currently single. 28) Crush: alot. 29) Parents: mother &father? 30) Worst Enemy: mmm, shant name la.
31) Fav online guy: haha, don't tell you! :P 32) Fav online girl: wendy... haha! 33) Craziest Friend: SHA! 34) Advice Friend: same as Q22 35) Loudest Friend: SHA! 36) Person you cry with: same as Q22 37) Any sisters: 1 38) Any brothers: 2 39) Any Pets: used to have many, but all died! 40) Any disease: asthma?
41) Any Pagers: what kind of world you live in? 42) Personal Phone Line: yes 43) Cell Phone: yes 44) Cell Sponser line: starhub 45) Pool or HotTub: it depends on who i am with. 46) A car: no, for th moment 47) Personality: outgoing to people i know, emo. 48) Driving: waiting... 49) Room: shared, with my brothers 50) Whats Missing: my partner
51) School: Fairfield Methodist Secondary 52) Bed Color: er... brown? 53) R'ship with Parents: so-so 54) Believe in Yourself: sometimes 55) Believe in LOVE at first sight: used to, now a fool for it. 56) Good-Listener: uh-huh 57) Get along with parents: sometimes 58) Save email conversations: haha, as in msn? yes 59) Pray: yes. 60) Believe in reincarnation: sometimes
61) Make fun of people: always 62) Like talking on the phone: uh-huh 63) Want to get married: yeah! 64) Like to drive: yes 65) Morning Sickness: Alot to be mention... 66) Eaten Stem of Brocoli: never! 67) Eat chicken with fork: yeah, i love chickens! haha... 68) Dream in color: ?? (this question sound sick) 69) Type your finger in home role: ?? 70) Sleep with stuff animal: used to, CAREBEARS!
71) Next to you: the comp (typing sideways) 72) On the walls in your room: holy pictures. 73) On your mousepad: the mouse &my hand. 74) Dream car: er... haven't thought about it yet... 75) Dream date: haha, plentiful 76) Dream Honeymoon spot: mmm... my favourite country, GERMANY! 77) Dream Husband or Wife: mmm, dont tell you! :P 78) Bedtime: 10p.m.? 79) Under your bed: nothing (: 80) Single most important Question: huh?
81) Bad time of Day: morning - afternoon... 82) Your worst fear: dying... 83) The weather is: Hot! 84) Time: 10.16 p.m. 85) Date: 11/10/2006 86) Best trick did on someone: mmm, cannot remember, did alot... 87) Theme Song: haha, 'you got a hairy *****!' 88) Hardest thing about growing up: gainning weight 89) Funniest experience: primary school 90) Scariest experience: getting into secondary school
91) Silliest thing you ever did: mmm, sleep talking 92) Scariest thing when you are with your friend: crossing th road when there is a heavy traffic! 93) Worst feeling: heartbroken, single 94) Best feeling in the world: being loved, attached 95) Last word: mmm...
CHOOSE 8 PERSON TO DO IT: 1) wendy 2) sha 3) red? 4) dominic? 5) joy? 6) andrew? 7) liangfu? 8) (anyone luh)
step up...
a simply must watch!
Everyone deserves a chance to follow their dreams, but some people only get one shot. Tyler Gage is a rebel from the wrong side of Baltimore's tracks--and the only thing that stands between him and an unfulfilled life are his dreams of one day making it out of there. Nora is a privileged ballet dancer attending Baltimore's ultra-elite Maryland School of the Arts--and the only thing standing in the way of her obviously brilliant future is finding a great dance partner for her senior showcase. When trouble with the law lands Tyler with a community service gig at Maryland School of the Arts, he arrives as an angry outsider, until his skills as a gifted street dancer draw Nora's attention. Now, as sparks fly between them, both on and off stage, Tyler realizes he has just one performance to prove that he can step up to a life far larger than he ever imagined.
i so simply wanna watch this!
i'm not here for your entertainment...
hey!
exams ended today... haha, will blog later on how th papers went... mmm. currently at ridout macs... haha... suppose to teach liangfu maths, but he's being busy doing art... sigh. so i am like super bored... hurhur! mmm... maybe going for job interview tmr with vic &glenys... sigh... i hope i can get a job that i really enjoy working in... mmm... parents are at malaysia now... coming back today night... so sian... haha
no mood to blog... teeheehee... (:
i can do it, if i just simply believe in myself
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
heyy,
well, just chatted with Mr. Ow(my humanities teacher)... he's really one of th good teachers that is willing to help us at no matter what cost even though our results were like.... sigh.
here is the convo we chat about...
Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! said: y u seeking humans tutor? zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } said: cos i really cannot understand th subject... sigh Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! said: did u read the text properly zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } said: i did... Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! said: n Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! said: wat did u not understand zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } said: i mean, i can't memorise th content. Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: but is it abt memorising zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } says: i know. Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: is never a test of memorising Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: but using facts to argue
then later...
Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: juz gotta continue to work wif me lor zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } says: no problem... i am really goona work hard for it... zhuowan; { seeking humanities / history tutor, anyone interested? } says: i really wanna get an A1... (no kidding!) Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: sure Express & NA Hist Chpt 1,2,3 NA SS Chpt 2&3 Good Luck! says: can get one
Mr. Ow ROCKS! haha...
English 2 - 10th October, Tuesday
paper went well! whoo hoo! haha, sad thing is i'm worried about my paper one as i didn't take it... sigh... just hoping for a 'Pass' mmm, anyway mr. adam kwa was our invigilator... so freaking funny la he... Chinese 2 - 10th October, Tuesday
well, i could also say th paper was easy luh. i can finally read th words in th cloze passage... haha. mrs. lim was our invigilator this time... she was another funny one too... haha... th comprehension was ok... didn't answer one question though... hee hee, hoping to pass this too.. Chinese Listening Comprehension - 10th October, Tuesday
easy peasy lemon squeezey...
sigh, tomorrow's papers are gonna be nightmares for me... crap!
waiting on some beautiful boy to save you ...
Monday, October 9, 2006
hey hey!
boy that song is stuck in my head! haha, but i lurrvve it to hell la... haha... mmm... can't wait till wednesday man... my last paper... woots. thursday is relaxation day (: haha. i think i am going swimming after every paper to relax myself... (:
Elementary Mathematics 1 - 9th October, Monday
mmm... it went super easy... i guess? haha, only skipped th bearing question even though it was easy... lol... haha, i can answer all th questions but my worries is that did i answer it wrongly! haha... History Elective - 9th October, Monday
don't mention about it... a sure 0/43... i didn't understand cos my brain was on 'maths mode' haha... dang! mr. ow is sure gonna be pissed at me... sigh
tomorrow's highlights!lol... English 2 - 10th October, Tuesday Chinese 2 - 10th October, Tuesday Chinese Listening Comprehension - 10th October, Tuesday
when you were young...
You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to To save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentleman Like you imagined When you were young
Can we climb this mountain I dont know Higher now than ever before I know we can make it if we take it slow Let's take it easy Easy now Watch it go
We're burning down the highway skyline On the back of a hurricane That started turning When you were young When you were young
&sometimes you close your eyes &see the place where you used to live When you were young
They say the devil's water It ain't so sweet You dont have to drink right now But you can dip your feet Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache Waiting on some beautiful boy to To save you from your old ways You play forgiveness Watch it now Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus But he talks like a gentleman Like you imagined When you were young (talks like a gentleman) (like you imagined) When you were young
I said he doesnt look a thing like Jesus He doesnt look a thing like Jesus But more than you'll ever know
you sit there in your heartache...
Saturday, October 7, 2006
hey,
sorry guys! exams period just begin therefore you didn't see any posts over th pass few days... well, lets say i have been mugging badly! haha...
Elementary Mathematics 2 - 4th October, Wednesday th paper went pretty ok. managed to do all th questions. well, i did skip some though... hee hee.. but i'm not so confident about it though.
Chinese 1 -5th October, Thursday boy, it was easy like shit! haha. well, finally i managed to understand every single word in th paper! haha. well, i basically converted everything from english to chinese. just hoping that i'll get a pass unlike last year...
Social Studies -5th October, Thursday sigh... was really pressurized over this subject... memorised everything... but still, i couldn't write it out... i felt so hopeless then.
English 1 -6th October, Friday
skipped, sick
Science (Chemistry) -6th October, Friday
skipped, sick
Additional Mathematics 1 -6th October, Friday
skipped, sick
i would leave if you asked me to...
Sunday, October 1, 2006
heyy!
sorry my readers, been mugging th whole day yesterday therefore i didn't blog...
had english &chinese oral yesterday. think i did badly even though we have alr did th passage for english before... chinese was disaterous as th lau shi spoke to me in english &chinese... so shitty... then went to dover w sha, bev, joy &vic for lunch.... ate chicken wing rice... haha. then bussed back home. rest for abit then went to ridout to meet liangfu to mug... joy came &we split up... me &liangfu went to maple's house while joy went to marc's
went maple's place. haha, th dog is scaring me out, even though its small, it bites! haha, studied maths... did 30questions. her mommy order pizza for us, we ate like a glutton... hee hee... went to mug, but i couldn't therefore i used th comp... haha, then her dad's friends &her dad came. her dad was so scary &funny luh. he made fun of liangfu... keke! haha
went back home at 10plus, reached home around like about to 12...